motivation at an all-time low

[glowing.purple.aura]

Enjoy this lovely chart I made depicting my motivation right now (and likely forever)



yup. literally flatlining.

but seriously, my mind is just "what reason is there to be awake," "what reason is there to get out of bed," "what reason is there to shower," "what reason is there to change into new clothes," "what reason is there to brush my teeth," "what reason is there to eat healthy," "what reason is there to do any schoolwork," "what reason is there to do laundry," "what reason is there to do anything," "what reason is there to live" all day, every day

I'm used to being depressed year-round but this constant suicidal ideation is killing any hope left for me.

 

[Pale_Rider]

That's how I feel without the spurts.

 

[glowing.purple.aura]

That's how I feel without the spurts.

yeah... I sometimes just get really motivated to get better because I am so tired of constantly feeling this way but the depression NEVER leaves

 

[U. A.]

As a nerd I am very interested in the missing metric of the y-axis and data that informed the changes.
Maybe the latter especially might be useful for you too...

Also I am amazed by the fact that you are evidently a time-traveller and writing to us from some point beyond 2026:



(sorry, nerd humor)

 

[Pale_Rider]

As a nerd I am very interested in the missing metric of the y-axis and data that informed the changes.
Maybe the latter especially might be useful for you too...

Also I am amazed by the fact that you are evidently a time-traveller and writing to us from some point beyond 2026:

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(sorry, nerd humor)

Maybe he just has ESP?

 

[glowing.purple.aura]

As a nerd I am very interested in the missing metric of the y-axis and data that informed the changes.
Maybe the latter especially might be useful for you too...

Also I am amazed by the fact that you are evidently a time-traveller and writing to us from some point beyond 2026:

View attachment 185798

(sorry, nerd humor)

not really based on any numerical values, just how I remember feeling compared to before my depression started
also just stretched out 2025 but I'm sure the straight line will continue far past 2026