Morning time is the worst

[plough22]

I must say that I read some threads of people who are in the same position, the agony of waking up, knowing that you have to go through another day, having the darkness envelope, the thoughts invading, the heavy head and not wanting to get up, do anything.

I am reading on the site that people want to die, it is damn hard to die, it is, I'd like to die but I'm too chicken at the moment. I need that moment to push me over the edge. I've been close, I've chocked myself out, I'd love Nembutal, as we all.
Why is living hard and finding death harder?
It a battle to get up and get out? I'm tired of it, I just want PEACE

 

[SerialFailer]

Funny enough the only moment in my entire day I'm not suicidal are the minutes I'm only half awake and want to go back to sleep.

After that's gone it's back to conscious hell.

 

[plough22]

Funny enough the only moment in my entire day I'm not suicidal are the minutes I'm only half awake and want to go back to sleep.

After that's gone it's back to conscious hell.

Yes that's what I mean, I awake and then the thoughts, real life hits again. Sleep and half sleep is a good send, I like waking middle night, not awake not sleeping but I feel no one can touch me, I'm safe, weird but it's true

 

[mathieu]

Yeah waking up is the worst part of my day. It's like, fuck not another day to get through.

 

[sadghost]

I empathize . I spend my whole day looking forward to my next time sleeping. It's so hard to do anything when all you want is to CTB

 

[Kumachan]

morning sucks thats why i dont get out of bed until noon

 

[030366]

Morning is the worst I dread it, it's a fact that Cortisol it's at its peak when you just wake up, makes anxiety much worse . People that go to sleep and never wake up are lucky.

 

[plough22]

Morning is the worst I dread it, it's a fact that Cortisol it's at its peak when you just wake up, makes anxiety much worse . People that go to sleep and never wake up are lucky.

Yes the morning is when it all starts over for me , I wish that I won't wake And find PEACE

 

[rhiino]

I can relate to that, morning time is the worst.

 

[narval]

I'll be the discordant voice. i tend to wake up early, Between 5am and 7am (because yes)... and until 9am approx is the only really good part of the day. I can stay in peace while annoying people are sleeping.

 

[The Dark Chaos]

I hate everytime I wake up especiallyyy in the morning. I hate that I have to get out of the bed and participate in real life. Living in your dreams is sooo muchh better than living in this world.

Me in the morning: Its to earlyy for this shit & I'm killing everyonee whoo talks to mehh. Humph!

 

[plough22]

Ex

I hate everytime I wake up especiallyyy in the morning. I hate that I have to get out of the bed and participate in real life. Living in your dreams is sooo muchh better than living in this world.

Me in the morning: Its to earlyy for this shit & I'm killing everyonee whoo talks to mehh. Humph!

Exactly living in your dreams, I wake uO and then my shot life comes a knocking. Need PEACE

 

[plough22]

Update: mornings are really the worst, the heaviness, the thoughts and darkness. I write this while my head is on the pillow. Don't want to move, just stay in bed. I hope an impulse will do it for me, I want just PEACE.

 

[Metalhead]

Waking up is easily the worst part of the day. Usually it's accompanied by waking up from yet another vivid dream normally involving some sort of struggle, then the practical thoughts start and my anxiety rises. Thus leading to the inevitable conclusion that ctb is my only option left but I'm simply too much of a coward to go through with it. This cycle has taken place for months now and I'm so sick off it, I just want it to stop. It leaves me feeling drained and a feeling of hopelessness.

 

[TheSomebody]

Morning is the worst time of the day, because all the bad things that happen to me always happen in the morning.

 

[Meditation guide]

I dreamed I was riding a bus and someone stole my bright yellow hat.