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dogemn

dogemn

I can't go on. I'll go on.
May 30, 2023
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What do you think your last few moments before you CTB will be? Will you be absolutely terrified, ambivalent, regret it and try to turn it back, call emergency, etc?
 
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124afun15

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Jul 8, 2025
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I remember it being very sad and wishful that things had been different.

That was years ago though now I feel more in tune with my own power and ability to create and change situations.
 
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rdelia_

rdelia_

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Aug 1, 2026
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talking from experience, when i tried to CBT for the first time, i was absolutely terrified. i drank lots of pills that i dont even know what will it do to me, it was really clumsy and my head was very dizzy aswell with my stomach working up, then i passed out. i probably thought that i really did died.

but after twice and thrice, i dont think ill ever get the same feelings when i tried for the first times...
 
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