I am suicidal for quite some time now. Passively since most of my life and actively since end of last year. I wonder what the mean time is for people actively suicidal to committing ctb?
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Bitcoin (BTC):Ethereum (ETH):Monero (XMR):That varies a lot. I've had periods of time on and off for many years, but this time is the most lasting one, over a year, and this looks like the last one. I do believe it will be within a few months.Listen to your favorite artists, eat your favorite food. Whatever you enjoy.MOst people struggle for years on and off before they ctb. The last crisis seems to vary from a few months to a few years.
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FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 48,593
I think that it is difficult to say. In my case I have never wanted to live and I have been suicidal for a long time, yet I am still here. I never thought I would make it to the age of 21, but suicide is very difficult after all, and the fear of failure is what holds me back from attempting. I can imagine that there are many people still here that have been suicidal for a lot of their life. It is hard to actually go through with it and all humans are programmed to survive, as well.
9BBN
Heaven, send Hell away
- Mar 29, 2021
- 377
It depends what the difference between "actively suicidal" and "passively suicidal" is. I'd bet that the vast majority of people who ctb have been suicidal for a long time. The biggest reasons that actively suicidal people don't ctb immediately are because they need a plan, they are scared to ctb, or they have obligations to stay. Many people ctb within a short time of a "crisis," probably because it overshadows the fear of dying. Some people are really at the edge of tolerating life that they are just waiting for one more excuse to leave. You can call it impulsive, but the reality is there is always a single straw that breaks the camel's back, so anyone can scrutinize that last straw and miss how it was always going to be arbitrary at that point.Similar threads
