I discovered that I can get SN from a certain online store that starts with A IF I have a business account. I think I can set one up; my soon-to-be ex-wife and I created a small business in a failed attempt to resell stuff online, and I could probably use that. Wondering now if I should send away for the SN while I can and keep it until all hope is lost and then use it, or go ahead with my original plan to send away for a shotgun and shells once I get to the point where I am committed to ctbing. SN would certainly be cheaper, but a shotgun would be quicker . . .
I think shotgun's better. That's my method and I've been researching for a while
1. There are plenty of decent shotguns for fairly cheap; 250-500$ was the low range I saw in my research. so unless SN is significantly cheaper than that and you're on a very tight budget I don't think it'd matter
2. SN comes with all the risks associated with buying any other controlled substance online; seller might be government or a scammer, product might be fake, etc. If you're discovered there's a chance you could face involuntary hospitalization for suicidal ideation which would make future CTB more difficult. All that pressure might make you more likely to CTB than you would be otherwise out of fear of being stopped rather than actually being sure. A legally acquired shotgun should not have those issues.
3. Firearms are statistically the best commonly available method.
If you shoot yourself in the head at the right angle (and there's a decently large margin of error) there will be a split second of pain (if your brain can even register it) followed by death. Zero chance of resuscitation.
If you take SN, there could be vomiting, abdominal pain, etc and it would take a while to die. Other drugs might be required to avoid the aforementioned issues and there is a risk of resuscitation.
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in short I don't think SN being cheaper (if it is cheaper) is worth the greater chance of failure/pain/government run-ins.