vallak-0
Rave to the Grave
- Jun 7, 2026
- 2
Pardon if a threat with the info im seeking already exists. It seems like im either to stupid to locate the search option or am not given the option yet for this as i got approved just today. Feel free to redirect me and delete this thread.
Few years ago i stumbled about this same issue sending my last farewells to online friends: there just isnt anyting where you can upload such things privately without somebody being able to find or reveals my plans too early where cops and paramedics coukd find and incarcerate me before that doesnt cost money ESPECIALLY not something thats a subscripion. I want to drill in that either way its not an option as im homeless and dont even have the money for bank account fees. 8€ can AND will make a difference between having a great time and having to steal from aldi to not starve to death so i wont even try making online payments within my short time left. The messages staying private have to be NOT paywalled. At all. please keep that in mind.
The next problem is that i need to be able to upload my text before i even head out to the rave. I dont have a mobile tariff which means i only have about 150mbits of mobile data per day before its as fast as a slug which means i cant send the unsceduled/unhidden message before or after the rave. The next place with public wifi is one and a half hour fast walking away and i do not plan on leaving the surrounding area in between. I will either go straight to hanging myself nearby the rave in the forest or camp there afterwards until my bus comes. i will NOT risk spiraling this into a complete mess of having cops on my ass before im certainly dead for good.
I can also not not send anyone a message. Some of the people not only should have the closure what to do with my stuff i left there innicially because im homeless, but also due to my estranged relationship with my family and the fact nobody know eachother and family living in a different state its very unlikely anyone even will know i died. It will already take months for most people who know me what happened to me so at least a handful has to know i didnt just fucked off to another place.
I also do not really want anybody from this forum doing the check in. I will post im gone before. Having a stranger check in risks drawing attention and it would also need somebody fluent in german.
I blabbered on for long enough... i would be eternally greatful for any advice and recommendations!
*I ALSO NEED TO ADD THIS PLEASE BE AWARE: Last year after the rave a dead body was found downstreams at the river nearby of somebody that died around the time, and unrelated to the rave. Presumably the person committed suicide by jumping off a bridge further upstreams. I want to clarify nothing of it had to do with the rave as he fled from the nearby psychward to ctband just happened to be in the area. Which means the cops not only know the area due to the (actually illegally held) rave but also did investigations there. I cannot stress enough that i cannot risk that the feds get allerted before im dead or else they will catch me.
Im sorry for adding things and any typos as im drunk and lowkey stressed. Finding an option that fits would not only help but also give me the option to choose when im ready. If i set the messages to be send at lets say 9am sharp sunday it would not only give me the option to fuck off it the situation becomes tense due to personal drama but also the option to pospone to after the rave. "Oh i feel tired and stressed i just go home" -> can just go to the forest to do the deed and know they will know later. "Oh im too tired to walk i will just camp out there here look the homeless shelter gave me camping equipptment! Dont worry just go home without me" -> still closure but after the rave ended and everyone left the area too far away to return back in time as in experience they all can last to the end but not past and rather go home then go spontaneously camping let alone even going to afterparties.
Few years ago i stumbled about this same issue sending my last farewells to online friends: there just isnt anyting where you can upload such things privately without somebody being able to find or reveals my plans too early where cops and paramedics coukd find and incarcerate me before that doesnt cost money ESPECIALLY not something thats a subscripion. I want to drill in that either way its not an option as im homeless and dont even have the money for bank account fees. 8€ can AND will make a difference between having a great time and having to steal from aldi to not starve to death so i wont even try making online payments within my short time left. The messages staying private have to be NOT paywalled. At all. please keep that in mind.
The next problem is that i need to be able to upload my text before i even head out to the rave. I dont have a mobile tariff which means i only have about 150mbits of mobile data per day before its as fast as a slug which means i cant send the unsceduled/unhidden message before or after the rave. The next place with public wifi is one and a half hour fast walking away and i do not plan on leaving the surrounding area in between. I will either go straight to hanging myself nearby the rave in the forest or camp there afterwards until my bus comes. i will NOT risk spiraling this into a complete mess of having cops on my ass before im certainly dead for good.
I can also not not send anyone a message. Some of the people not only should have the closure what to do with my stuff i left there innicially because im homeless, but also due to my estranged relationship with my family and the fact nobody know eachother and family living in a different state its very unlikely anyone even will know i died. It will already take months for most people who know me what happened to me so at least a handful has to know i didnt just fucked off to another place.
I also do not really want anybody from this forum doing the check in. I will post im gone before. Having a stranger check in risks drawing attention and it would also need somebody fluent in german.
I blabbered on for long enough... i would be eternally greatful for any advice and recommendations!
*I ALSO NEED TO ADD THIS PLEASE BE AWARE: Last year after the rave a dead body was found downstreams at the river nearby of somebody that died around the time, and unrelated to the rave. Presumably the person committed suicide by jumping off a bridge further upstreams. I want to clarify nothing of it had to do with the rave as he fled from the nearby psychward to ctband just happened to be in the area. Which means the cops not only know the area due to the (actually illegally held) rave but also did investigations there. I cannot stress enough that i cannot risk that the feds get allerted before im dead or else they will catch me.
Im sorry for adding things and any typos as im drunk and lowkey stressed. Finding an option that fits would not only help but also give me the option to choose when im ready. If i set the messages to be send at lets say 9am sharp sunday it would not only give me the option to fuck off it the situation becomes tense due to personal drama but also the option to pospone to after the rave. "Oh i feel tired and stressed i just go home" -> can just go to the forest to do the deed and know they will know later. "Oh im too tired to walk i will just camp out there here look the homeless shelter gave me camping equipptment! Dont worry just go home without me" -> still closure but after the rave ended and everyone left the area too far away to return back in time as in experience they all can last to the end but not past and rather go home then go spontaneously camping let alone even going to afterparties.
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