lots of despair tonight

[hereandthere13]

at this point i don't think i would mind being shot down in a mall or something

 

[hschaf]

I think that's the way. I can't bear to be a number, a suicide "victim", a young person coerced into suicide. I just want to be human, and I wouldn't mind some sympathy (i.e. young boy with bright future gunned down, something people can relate to). Sorry for kinda derailing

 

[Dejected 55]

at this point i don't think i would mind being shot down in a mall or something

Especially if I didn't see it coming, like it was happening behind me and I was taken out before I even thought to turn around.

 

[hereandthere13]

I think that's the way. I can't bear to be a number, a suicide "victim", a young person coerced into suicide. I just want to be human, and I wouldn't mind some sympathy (i.e. young boy with bright future gunned down, something people can relate to). Sorry for kinda derailing

it's okay, i get where you're coming from. i also don't want to be another statistic or "lost cause" that couldn't have been saved. maybe if i die naturally by an accident or sickness then i'll never have to feel guilt over the decision to do it to myself. and those who genuinely cared for me when i was alive won't feel the need to carry a burden around for the rest of their lives.

Especially if I didn't see it coming, like it was happening behind me and I was taken out before I even thought to turn around.

exactly. something quick that isn't too gruesome or painful. a perfect shot to either the heart or the back of head (brainstem) would be perfect. quick death with minimal pain and scene spillage (since it would be a single wound). nobody has to be THAT traumatized!