I've never had any friends, absolutely none. I don't know why but i have always found most people to be boring and shallow, like there's nothing behind their eyes. No interesting thoughts or opinions, no experiences to connect with and a sense of humor i would have found funny maybe 10 years ago. I've started to feel that i'm never going to make any friends and with life such a fucking bother for me i've figured i got no better alternative than to blow my head off someday. There is a zero% that i'd have the patience or the willpower or fucking-whatever to live a life completely alone.
It's frustrating, i always hear about people saying "well, have you tried to know people on a deeper level?" Of course i have, but everyone i try to know better just ends up being the most boring and shallow type of person on the planets surface that i've met so far. I just don't get it. It's probably because years of unristricted internet use have melted my brain to the point where the only people i relate or a similar neets who've also struggled with connecting to other but i have no clue where could i even begin to find those types of people, expecially when i live in a country the langauge of which is spoken by less people than some metropolitan areas have people lmao
It's frustrating, i always hear about people saying "well, have you tried to know people on a deeper level?" Of course i have, but everyone i try to know better just ends up being the most boring and shallow type of person on the planets surface that i've met so far. I just don't get it. It's probably because years of unristricted internet use have melted my brain to the point where the only people i relate or a similar neets who've also struggled with connecting to other but i have no clue where could i even begin to find those types of people, expecially when i live in a country the langauge of which is spoken by less people than some metropolitan areas have people lmao
