Life.

[Rezzienator]

What's your life story or journey?? What has gotten you to this point, was it your life in it's entirety?

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

I want to CTB because I can't deal with the fact that you don't really "progress" in life.

I feel like after I'm out of youth to fart around with and have fun there isn't much good left after that. Just hanging around to die anyway.

For a long time I thought it's important to work hard and try to stick to the lifescript somewhat and be pro social and support your world and community . But after observing what a disaster our world truly is none of this is important to me any longer

 

[UselessBeing]

I was sexually abused throughout my whole early childhood. Between ages 19-22 i was raped twice. I come from a long line of abuse. My mothers mother was insanely abusive to my mom. So my mom didn't know any better but its fucked me up.

Everytime I think I overcome something or make progress in life something instantly takes it all away. Im realizing life is just a constant fight and I cant do it anymore. Tbh I wanna ctb on March 22nd. Im done trying. Sick of living with BPD, depression, anxiety and PTSD ontop of physcial issues. Just not worth fighting anymore.

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case, I have never wanted to be alive. Even when I was very young I found death to be comforting. I am simply not meant for this world and I have never been able to cope with life. For such a long time, I have seen life as being stressful, tiring and depressing. I just prefer the sound of non existence, I want to be free from all suffering. I see consciousness as being torture and I do not want to think or feel anymore. The fact that life is even a thing in the first place is horrifying to me. As the years have gone on, I have became more and more suicidal. I should have never been born in the first place, my existence was a complete mistake. I wish I never had to experience this life more than anything.

 

[Toxic Positivity]

My suicidality has been steadily increasing since adolescence. I think when you're dealing with these thoughts, this "wanting everything to be over," this mindset doesn't lend itself to success. So I did poorly in school, got into college (somehow), did poorly there, and am now faced with the reality of low-wage, uninteresting labor for the foreseeable future. I simply cannot cope or deal with this fact. Things would have been different, I think, if I got help earlier, but the situation is too fucked now for me to solve it.

I don't want to live out the life ahead of me, and should not have to if that is my choice.