Discussion are you actually gonna do it or is it just to cope?

[Spelldungeon]

I dont know.

 

[Mooncry]

The world tricked me into believing suicide was the easy way out. I became very disillusioned very fast that it is, in fact, the hardest thing someone could ever do. I don't do it to cope. I genuinely do want to do it and do believe I eventually will. I just think it's always been inevitable for me. As for when, I really don't know. I'm too scared right now, and I have no idea when I won't be. Maybe never, and I just end up having to do it despite that fear and inability to make peace. I'm waiting for the impulse to hit I guess.

 

[MyMomWasMyLife]

I absolutely want to. I had certain methods in mind. But then when I found this site, I found out those methods were very unreliable. And most other methods mentioned sound horrible as well. Like I've said before, it's nowhere near as easy to do in real life as it's depicted in TV shows and movies. If there was doctor assisted suicide available to me, I wouldn't hesitate.

 

[bdynv]

I'm definitely scared of many things, but I'm probably going to hang myself on Thursday

unrelated but nice pfp u have good taste. sorry u feel this way ofc

 

[fadedghost]

I'm definitely scared of many things, but I'm probably going to hang myself on Thursday

What is your reason? You dont have to say and sorry for imposing if asking seems strange.

i realized that i only ever think about suicide as a way to cope for difficult situations in my life. i don't think ill ever actually do it. im too much of a coward and a delusional retard. i always subconsciously think my life will somehow get better even though it's only gotten worse. but that delusion keeps me from making any permanent decisions.

wbu? do you feel the same or are you genuinely gonna do it?

I totally relate to this. I feel the same way, but also have seriously attempted before, so I am not sure if this is just coping or accepting it will likely happen. I've been suicidal a while now and feel less suicidal recently, but still suicidal, so I don't know what will happen. Despite a prior attempt, I have major SI.

 

[itsallogrenow]

Which method are you considering?

Before this forum I always thought OD was one of the best options. Boy was I wrong

10g Amitriptyline, 3.6g Propanolol w/ grapefruit juice.

 

[Front Back]

I'm sorry everyone but as of now I'm still a larper to death.

 

[silentroom123]

What is your reason? You dont have to say and sorry for imposing if asking seems strange.

I totally relate to this. I feel the same way, but also have seriously attempted before, so I am not sure if this is just coping or accepting it will likely happen. I've been suicidal a while now and feel less suicidal recently, but still suicidal, so I don't know what will happen. Despite a prior attempt, I have major SI.

No it's alright, it's a long story like most people here. Mainly mental illness and trauma.

 

[complex]

It only works as a cope for so long. Eventually your brain wisens up to the ruse, and it doesn't work anymore. You don't get relief because deep down you know you aren't going to do it.

So then you have to start taking actions. To get that same relief. Writing a note, buying a gun, etc. Steps to prove to yourself that you're serious.

Then it eventually comes down to whether you're impulsive enough to take the final step.

Yeah why yeah that really rings true! So unfair as i was a lit more settled when my brain thought i could and would but now haven't, yeah it needs me to get the stuff to,test the stuff to and write notes even tell people it won't be if it be when....

I have many attempts under my belt and each one failing made me angry. I never wanted to live a long life but at this point I want to actively avoid existing.

Same

The world tricked me into believing suicide was the easy way out. I became very disillusioned very fast that it is, in fact, the hardest thing someone could ever do. I don't do it to cope. I genuinely do want to do it and do believe I eventually will. I just think it's always been inevitable for me. As for when, I really don't know. I'm too scared right now, and I have no idea when I won't be. Maybe never, and I just end up having to do it despite that fear and inability to make peace. I'm waiting for the impulse to hit I guess.

Yeah my attempts were real tries to exit and i was in a place of true emptiness but at the moment people(professionals) are trying to help and that makes me feel comforted in some level as no one ever really has before and this kicks my SI into play!! And makes me query if its the only answer i have to this life of ME and my ways til now i kinda hope they vanish as nice as the warmth of their support is as it is only temporary and i still want out and they delaying it

 

[extremelyugly]

Both but only because where I live doing it in a "painless" (or better, quick and effective) way is very hard. This country is jail itself. Oh and also because I'm scared of failing (with other less certain methods).