Everything just needs time time time and the lifespan is limited while the time needed is very long. Why should I need years and years to draw or do something, I want to draw now or as soon as possible. Fuck this piece of shit called life.
This is the last thing I want to do and it looks like its impossible. Yes I want to draw something before I leave but I always hear it takes years or forever and now I want to ctb more than ever and I'm clueless. Everything else also needs much time or resources to accomplish. If I'm not doing anything, I'm depressed and when I try drawing I do nothing good and don't improve at all and I get more depressed. Not to mention how I can't focus sometimes.
Maybe I should quit this life already and never think about doing anything in this stupid time machine. Its not only about drawing but everything. Time time time, fuck you time
This is the last thing I want to do and it looks like its impossible. Yes I want to draw something before I leave but I always hear it takes years or forever and now I want to ctb more than ever and I'm clueless. Everything else also needs much time or resources to accomplish. If I'm not doing anything, I'm depressed and when I try drawing I do nothing good and don't improve at all and I get more depressed. Not to mention how I can't focus sometimes.
Maybe I should quit this life already and never think about doing anything in this stupid time machine. Its not only about drawing but everything. Time time time, fuck you time
