Life as a matter of consent

[Toxic Positivity]

I am getting a gun to kill myself. In so many aspects, I feel like I didn't have a choice. I didn't choose to be born. I didn't want to go to college. I didn't want to drop out. I didn't want to deal with low-wage, uninteresting jobs that are available for someone who has little to offer on a resume. The system, by which I mean capitalism, has a place for people like me: at the bottom. I didn't consent to this hierarchy, either.

After turning 30 and dropping out of school a second time, I am realizing that I absolutely do not consent to live the long and difficult life ahead of me. People say to keep hope, that things will get better if I work at them. But what I want is to let go. I don't want to struggle anymore. I don't want to live with my failure, and with society's failure, to give me guidance.

Put very simply, people who do not want to live should not have to. This week I am acquiring a rifle and ammunition. I will put the barrel of the rifle in my mouth and FINALLY exercise what feels like CHOICE in this world. I do not have to live the life that is ahead of me. That is up to me.

 

[Darkover]

who would consent to these dreadful lives, who ever said nothing last forever is lying death is forever, good luck to you may you reset in peace

 

[FuneralCry]

Your feelings are understandable. None of us asked to be here in the first place so we have no obligations to stay alive. It frustrates me, the people who believe that we must live a life we never asked for until we die from natural causes, and do everything to try to prevent ctb. It is our lives, our decision and we have the right to exit at a time of our own choosing. It is nothing to do with anyone else. Suicide should not be so stigmatised, it is a human right. I know it can be unbearable living a life you hate. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I am getting a gun to kill myself. In so many aspects, I feel like I didn't have a choice. I didn't choose to be born. I didn't want to go to college. I didn't want to drop out. I didn't want to deal with low-wage, uninteresting jobs that are available for someone who has little to offer on a resume. The system, by which I mean capitalism, has a place for people like me: at the bottom. I didn't consent to this hierarchy, either.

After turning 30 and dropping out of school a second time, I am realizing that I absolutely do not consent to live the long and difficult life ahead of me. People say to keep hope, that things will get better if I work at them. But what I want is to let go. I don't want to struggle anymore. I don't want to live with my failure, and with society's failure, to give me guidance.

Put very simply, people who do not want to live should not have to. This week I am acquiring a rifle and ammunition. I will put the barrel of the rifle in my mouth and FINALLY exercise what feels like CHOICE in this world. I do not have to live the life that is ahead of me. That is up to me.

I see u r using a rifle. What kind? I have a 12 guage shotgun I can put in my mouth. Would a slug or 00 buckshot be better for my ctb. Or would a slug to my chest to get the heart work better ?Maybe I can get an armor piercing slug

 

[Toxic Positivity]

I see u r using a rifle. What kind? I have a 12 guage shotgun I can put in my mouth. Would a slug or 00 buckshot be better for my ctb. Or would a slug to my chest to get the heart work better ?Maybe I can get an armor piercing slug

I think for us, the method is solid. Firearms have an ~85% success rate. Where I get nervous is that other 15%. I think the main things are where you aim and what you use.

From what I've seen, and you should look into this further, a shotgun to the head should absolutely do the job as long as you don't put it under your chin. This is how people blow their faces off. Similarly, I have also read that putting it to your temple may not be enough either with a small caliber (I am going to use a .22 caliber rifle). The medulla oblongata is the target, as it controls breathing and heart rate. Take all of this with a grain of salt as I also need to do a little more research on what the best angle in the mouth should be.