Nonetheless it's very difficult in daily functioning especially in nowadays society
I just had lunch with my family and some relatives (aunt, cousin, etc.). At first I didn't want to participate at all. But I had to go downstairs cuz I needed to get my medication and I have to take em with something to eat. The food was actually really good but everything else was horrible. They were talking about everything I can't relate to (sports and so) and they are all high functioning members of society. Meanwhile I am the druggie fuckup who was failed by psychiatry like so many other's. I was just watching on the floor all the time. I couldn't keep eyecontact with anyone. I didn't say one word. While they all had a good time eating, drinking, laughing. I couldn't even understand half the things they were saying. I just felt ashemed, uncomfortable and just terrible the whole time. Lovely barbecue as always..