i’ve properly made up my mind now

[butterfly3]

im so tired of hoping things will get better and trying to improve and they don't. normally id be studying right now, but i've figured im not going to as i'm going through with it soon. I have no money at the moment, but as soon as I do im ordering some SN.
im so stressed no one really cares about me and i have no friends. and this ed is destroying me. i feel like im so boring and just not good enough at all. its been like this for 2 years straight now.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are in this situation, I know that this life can be unbearable when all you want is to leave this world. I believe that having hope often just leads to more suffering. Losing hope can be very depressing, which is why I am glad that I have none. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.

 

[CommitSudoku]

I'm sorry you feel this way and that life has brought you to this point. Welcome to these forums though and I hope maybe you can find comfort/reprieve here, possibly even connections. Though in a way, thinking no one really cares is one way to try to diminish the pain/guilt we get considering leaving. I've struggled a lot with thinking no one cares and maintaining friendships and now I'm at a point where I've realized some people do care, but I'm not sure how fixable anything is or if there's anything worth it in my life to keep struggling on. I know it doesn't mean much but I wish people weren't brought to the point where leaving seems or is the best option. But all I have our words.

You only have one post here but I don't see you as boring at all. Often I wonder more about the stories behind why everyone is here but there's never enough time or energy to ask, or it might be unwanted. Once more I'm sorry you've come to this point and things are so painful. Best wishes whatever you decide to do.

 

[butterfly3]

I'm sorry you feel this way and that life has brought you to this point. Welcome to these forums though and I hope maybe you can find comfort/reprieve here, possibly even connections. Though in a way, thinking no one really cares is one way to try to diminish the pain/guilt we get considering leaving. I've struggled a lot with thinking no one cares and maintaining friendships and now I'm at a point where I've realized some people do care, but I'm not sure how fixable anything is or if there's anything worth it in my life to keep struggling on. I know it doesn't mean much but I wish people weren't brought to the point where leaving seems or is the best option. But all I have our words.

You only have one post here but I don't see you as boring at all. Often I wonder more about the stories behind why everyone is here but there's never enough time or energy to ask, or it might be unwanted. Once more I'm sorry you've come to this point and things are so painful. Best wishes whatever you decide to do.

thanks for this response, it's very sweet :)

I'm sorry that you are in this situation, I know that this life can be unbearable when all you want is to leave this world. I believe that having hope often just leads to more suffering. Losing hope can be very depressing, which is why I am glad that I have none. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.

thank you :)

 

[Insomniac]

My situation is similar to yours. Sending many hugs your way.