amerie
goofball
- Oct 6, 2024
- 210
I don't really know if my life is going to get better, maybe it's the 2am impulsive thoughts but I think I've decided
If my life is still shitty by June 28th, 2026 then I'm officially ending it with no questions asked. If it gets better, then I'm ending it in 2041 or 2044.
I genuinely have such deep hatred for myself and I don't think it's ever going to get better, if I love myself and stop masking then my life will get worse and I'll probably become one of those lolcows, self hatred and suppressing my needs is the brutal, but only way I can succeed in this world and I can only handle it for so long.
I also should probably just make one singular post where I vent and I guess this one will be it.
If my life is still shitty by June 28th, 2026 then I'm officially ending it with no questions asked. If it gets better, then I'm ending it in 2041 or 2044.
I genuinely have such deep hatred for myself and I don't think it's ever going to get better, if I love myself and stop masking then my life will get worse and I'll probably become one of those lolcows, self hatred and suppressing my needs is the brutal, but only way I can succeed in this world and I can only handle it for so long.
I also should probably just make one singular post where I vent and I guess this one will be it.
