The only way for me to commit suicide is to jump off the roof. I know it's not 100%, but I have no other choice and I'm going to jump from the 16th floor, which increases the chances. The reason is that other methods are unavailable/not reliable enough
Hanging. A few days ago I managed to decide on a complete hanging. Although I was touching the ground with my toes, I hung on. And it was a severe pain, despite the fact that I did not feel that I was losing consciousness. The reason for this, as far as I understand, is that I have deep carotid arteries and strong neck muscles. That is, complete hanging threatens me with prolonged agony, it will take a long time before I lose consciousness. So this method is not for me
Shoot yourself/get poisoned with medicine. I live in Russia and there are very repressive laws here. It is almost impossible to get a weapon here (if you have a mental illness, like me), and all medications that can be poisoned are prescribed. I would really like to take a headshot, but it's not available to me. Blowing yourself up is the same thing. It is impossible to get explosives here.
Exit bag. I tried this method, unfortunately, I could not decide, even knowing that it would be painless. It would be easier to decide if I had my own car. And I would have started it in a closed garage and lost consciousness, but I don't have it.
Jump under the train. I'm afraid I might get cold feet, but the train will stop in an emergency, then I will have problems with the police.
It turns out that the only way for me is to jump. I'm going to take alcohol together with sedative medication to fall into a psychedelic state/relax (I know that lsd/psilocybin is better for this, but I live in a small town, it's impossible to get here even illegally). I've been trying to commit suicide for 4 years now. There is no further way, I am tired of suffering from mental problems, the inability to get a job. Wish me luck or give me advice at your discretion.
Hanging. A few days ago I managed to decide on a complete hanging. Although I was touching the ground with my toes, I hung on. And it was a severe pain, despite the fact that I did not feel that I was losing consciousness. The reason for this, as far as I understand, is that I have deep carotid arteries and strong neck muscles. That is, complete hanging threatens me with prolonged agony, it will take a long time before I lose consciousness. So this method is not for me
Shoot yourself/get poisoned with medicine. I live in Russia and there are very repressive laws here. It is almost impossible to get a weapon here (if you have a mental illness, like me), and all medications that can be poisoned are prescribed. I would really like to take a headshot, but it's not available to me. Blowing yourself up is the same thing. It is impossible to get explosives here.
Exit bag. I tried this method, unfortunately, I could not decide, even knowing that it would be painless. It would be easier to decide if I had my own car. And I would have started it in a closed garage and lost consciousness, but I don't have it.
Jump under the train. I'm afraid I might get cold feet, but the train will stop in an emergency, then I will have problems with the police.
It turns out that the only way for me is to jump. I'm going to take alcohol together with sedative medication to fall into a psychedelic state/relax (I know that lsd/psilocybin is better for this, but I live in a small town, it's impossible to get here even illegally). I've been trying to commit suicide for 4 years now. There is no further way, I am tired of suffering from mental problems, the inability to get a job. Wish me luck or give me advice at your discretion.
