it's going downhill

[celan]

tomorrow i'll stop taking my medications. within one or two weeks, i'll should be ready to do what needs to be done. out of desperation i ordered sn from two sources, the first one arrived, the second one is now going through customs. normally they only check the invoice that is affixed to the package to calculate the taxes, i've got to pay. but maybe they'll seize it and i'll get problems with the police. in that case it needs to be done quicker.

 

[BobMorane]

why do you need to stop medication in order to ingest sn ?

 

[celan]

why do you need to stop medication in order to ingest sn ?

my medication makes me almost manic, it gives me heavy moodswings. i want my last days to live in peace. bupropion gives you artificial highs and lows. i feel bad enough to ctb, but maybe the withdrawal will intensify it.

 

[Kaisler]

tomorrow i'll stop taking my medications. within one or two weeks, i'll should be ready to do what needs to be done. out of desperation i ordered sn from two sources, the first one arrived, the second one is now going through customs. normally they only check the invoice that is affixed to the package to calculate the taxes, i've got to pay. but maybe they'll seize it and i'll get problems with the police. in that case it needs to be done quicker.

If you don't mind are you from europe or are you from somewhere else ?

 

[celan]

If you don't mind are you from europe or are you from somewhere else ?

yes, i'm from europe.

 

[Kaisler]

yes, i'm from europe.

Dang from central Europe as well, fuck I really want to buy sn but I don't know if the customs will mess with it

 

[celan]

if you remind me, i'll write here what happened with the package.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are suffering. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[celan]

I'm sorry you are suffering. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

thank you very much. i'll do it within the next 7-14 days. maybe i'll create a goodbye thread.

 

[celan]

my sn has been sent to the customs. normally they check the packages at the airport and committ it to a delivery company. so i guess they led it to my local customs, where i could collect it (what i won't) or i'll get some problems.

 

[Kaisler]

my sn has been sent to the customs. normally they check the packages at the airport and committ it to a delivery company. so i guess they led it to my local customs, where i could collect it (what i won't) or i'll get some problems.

At least you got your other package right ?

 

[celan]

At least you got your other package right ?

yes, i hope the police doesn't show up. i'm going to fast for a few days to be always ready to ctb. i've already got mcp, omeprazol, ibuprofen and clonazolam. but i' m pretty nervous and scared right now.

 

[Kaisler]

yes, i hope the police doesn't show up. i'm going to fast for a few days to be always ready to ctb. i've already got mcp, omeprazol, ibuprofen and clonazolam. but i' m pretty nervous and scared right now.

Well don't know what to say here but I wish you luck.