it's been 6 months since my SN arrived and here I am still

[NothingElseMatters]

why am I such a coward? anyway, it's good to have a backup ready.

 

[Delia]

same thing here except it's been roughly a year for me. It's not such a big deal. if you're not ready, you're not ready. Enjoy what you have today and don't beat yourself so harshly over this matter.

 

[WornOutLife]

I don't think you're a coward. Dying is not easy at all. It's the hardest decision to make, I think.

If I had my sn next to me, I would probably still be alive. I have so many doubts!

 

[ashedout]

I've heard a lot of people are able to find a bit of peace even knowing they have the option to ctb readily available so I don't think you are a coward at all!

 

[Lost Magic]

I have had mine for a about a year. I have the comfort knowing that I can end it all in a non violent and relatively peaceful way. I also have propranolol, benzos, sleeping tabs, painkillers and meto. I still have a few things to take care of like my will and such but I have no desire to be here for much longer. So, glad I don't have people who depend on me anymore. Best wishes to all.

 

[It'sNotLookingGood]

Choosing not to take your SN does not make you a coward.

Maybe one day you will need it. Maybe not. Don't force something that you are not ready for.

Peace and love friend <3