It feels like its been forever since ive been on here

[Lifeless mindset]

Its been some months since I had last been on here, I guess you could say I needed a break. I like to think about it as taking the chance the get better. I wasn't able to CTB, I just couldn't get myself to do it. A week after I was supposed to CTB I ended up getting together with my ex and things have been going pretty good I guess. I just got a new job so thats pretty cool. I never cared about money or work or anything like that but unfortunately its something that needs to be apart of your daily life if you wanna make ends meet. Lately I've been thinking about coming back and going through with my CTB plans. I was dumb to think that I could just pick myself up and act like nothing ever happened. Im trapped in a loop and I'm tired of it. Glad to be back though. I don't really see the people that I saw here before. I wish you guys peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are suffering. I know that it can be hard to carry on when you are tired of everything. This life really is so depressing. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Sorry it didn't work out for you. It's so maddening going through the same thing day after day just struggling.
There have been many members who have left. Not sure when you were last here. Your avatar looks familiar,
I don't know if we talked before or not. (Shitty memory)
Does your s.o. know about your plans to CTB? I don't have one but I don't think I would tell them.
Anyway, wishing the best for you and hope you find peace.

 

[Lifeless mindset]

I'm sorry that you are suffering. I know that it can be hard to carry on when you are tired of everything. This life really is so depressing. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.

Thank you, you as well.

Sorry it didn't work out for you. It's so maddening going through the same thing day after day just struggling.
There have been many members who have left. Not sure when you were last here. Your avatar looks familiar,
I don't know if we talked before or not. (Shitty memory)
Does your s.o. know about your plans to CTB? I don't have one but I don't think I would tell them.
Anyway, wishing the best for you and hope you find peace.

Thank you. My s.o. knows that I've been suicidal in the past but I don't think she knows that im currently in that state of mind.

 

[luke_skywalker]

Were there any occasion that made u think you should come back?