Is there anyone wants to CTB because they feel they are not winning in life ?

[Abir_london]

Anything me like me ?

no big problem or specific reason I'm just not happy and not winning in life.
I thought I'd be married by now.
Have a hater life and happier

I'm just sick and tired of everything

But also I peaceful death is a must,all the pain is not worth it unless the rest of my world collapses

who's like me?I would like to hear from you

 

[BandAddict]

Well, aside from everything else that's wrong, it's not even that I'm NOT winning in life... It feels like I CAN'T win in life. I'm UNABLE to.

 

[WornOutLife]

Yeah, that's certainly one of my reasons to ctb.

 

[Symbiote]

I stopped attempting to win at life because everything in this stupid world is a rat race to the top, whether you're stepping on people or over to get there. The world has become a selfish and capitalistic society where having the best of anything is considered winning.

Well you know what? There will never be a stopping point because people will always acquire more than you would ever dream of because the person they're competing with has more. Neverending cycle to out do the person and then brag about it. Winning in life is to be content and humble about the current things you have in the present and being able to ignore all the noise in the background. You keep on racing with others, you will ALWAYS lose.

 

[life-eternal]

definitely. absolutely everything that can go wrong goes wrong in my life for the last few months. i can't do anything anymore because it just goes wrong, even filling out fucking paper work. something comes up and i can't accomplish it, it's like a tragic comedy

 

[Abir_london]

I stopped attempting to win at life because everything in this stupid world is a rat race to the top, whether you're stepping on people or over to get there. The world has become a selfish and capitalistic society where having the best of anything is considered winning.

Well you know what? There will never be a stopping point because people will always acquire more than you would ever dream of because the person they're competing with has more. Neverending cycle to out do the person and then brag about it. Winning in life is to be content and humble about the current things you have in the present and being able to ignore all the noise in the background. You keep on racing with others, you will ALWAYS lose.

Wow so true

 

[Nymph]

I don't need to be winning in life but I straight up feel like I'm failing in life..and it's not just a feeling. I AM failing in life. I hate responsibilities, I hate work..I didn't ask to be here and I don't want to be forced to be a slave of the government. I just wanna disappear, I didn't ask for any of this

 

[Abir_london]

definitely. absolutely everything that can go wrong goes wrong in my life for the last few months. i can't do anything anymore because it just goes wrong, even filling out fucking paper work. something comes up and i can't accomplish it, it's like a tragic comedy

I'm so sorry,what is the reason for it ?

 

[BandAddict]

definitely. absolutely everything that can go wrong goes wrong in my life for the last few months. i can't do anything anymore because it just goes wrong, even filling out fucking paper work. something comes up and i can't accomplish it, it's like a tragic comedy

I feel this so much, this is the kinda shit I was referring to. Especially with medical shit. It's all so exhausting.

 

[life-eternal]

I'm so sorry,what is the reason for it ?

I think it goes back to feelings and life being the worst thing to ever happen to me.

1) So if i absolutely hate something and i do not want to do it, because i am 100% convinced i want to CTB, subconsciously everything i do i don't accomplish, because i really couldn't care less.

2) I hate life and i am at war with it completely.

I feel this so much, this is the kinda shit I was referring to. Especially with medical shit. It's all so exhausting.

Yep, even if i want to do something ,it doesn't go my way. it can't. It is extremely exhausting and all i think about is my day to CTB and making plans for it.

 

[Emily_Numb]

'Winning in life' won't change any unlying mental illness or unresolved trauma. It also won't automatically make you to feel fulfilled.

On paper, someone looking in from the outside would say I was 'winning' in a purely materialistic sense.
The 'big' house
The sporty/luxury cars
Married for 10+
Go on holiday 3+ a year
Have travelled all over the world
Stay in luxury accommodation
Started my own multimillion pound business (please don't DM me to ask me about this. My privacy is my priority over proving this to anyone)

However ..... none of these 'things' stopped my repeatedly trying to take my own life last year, the last attempt leaving me in ICU on life support. I then went into voluntary inpatient about 3 weeks later.

One thing I know for sure is that 'winning' in life is absolutely nothing to do with the above. True 'Winning in life' for me would be:

Good self image
Solid self esteem
Low anxiety
Contentment
Fulfilment
Emotionally supported
Spiritually enriched (not God, but just a sense of self/inner peace/calm).
To live in the moment

Please don't think that ticking those stereotypical goals off the Bingo Card of Life will make you feel any better. If you are already depressed, it won't. In fact, the more things I ticked off the more I became depressed.

With those things come more stress and pressure. Yes, financial security is great, but no one really is financially secure unless we are talking about old money billionaire sort of wealth. It can all disappear as quickly as it came. The more you have, the more you have to loose and the bigger the fall from grace. Oh he had no money and I've had a lot of money. A lot of money is better but it doesn't quell that dark, empty, hollow feeling inside your chest that comes with Major depressive disorder or other mental illnesses or personality disorders.

All I want from my life now it to build my self esteem and self image. Also to live in the moment. That is the only way I can feel at peace.

 

[Symbiote]

I feel that those who claim to be "winning" are those whose lives are scrutinized in every detail that they can never be sated or happy. Celebrities killing themselves because they can never live a normal life. Non-celebs killing themselves because they can't reach the celeb life.

 

[Emily_Numb]

I feel that those who claim to be "winning" are those whose lives are scrutinized in every detail that they can never be sated or happy. Celebrities killing themselves because they can never live a normal life. Non-celebs killing themselves because they can't reach the celeb life.

I think really the reason most people kill themselves is a lack of fulfilment. That can be a celebrity or a regular Joe.
It's about trying to get to the bottom of WHY we aren't fulfilled and HOW we can grow in that way. I'm not saying it's easy, it definitely isn't, I do know that living in the moment has an awful lot to do with it. I'm only just starting to realise that and understand the concept fully.

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

If your definition of winning is you get married and have children your kids are very likely going to die a brutal death from global warming.

 

[HenryHobkins]

Well, aside from everything else that's wrong, it's not even that I'm NOT winning in life... It feels like I CAN'T win in life. I'm UNABLE to.

Yup, Bingo

 

[OnlyTheWind]

Everything I ever wanted to do is impossible for me. My life is already over, and now it's just a waiting game until my matters are sorted.

 

[SadGirl]

Anything me like me ?

no big problem or specific reason I'm just not happy and not winning in life.
I thought I'd be married by now.
Have a hater life and happier

I'm just sick and tired of everything

But also I peaceful death is a must,all the pain is not worth it unless the rest of my world collapses

who's like me?I would like to hear from you

I don't have a good job, I can't pay my bills or help with my parents' bills, I ended my relationship about 2 months ago, I'm suffering a lot from it, I miss her a lot, I'm not smart, and I feel like I'll never have anything in my life. I'm just here for my mom.

 

[confused-gemini]

I don't need to be winning in life but I straight up feel like I'm failing in life..and it's not just a feeling. I AM failing in life. I hate responsibilities, I hate work..I didn't ask to be here and I don't want to be forced to be a slave of the government. I just wanna disappear, I didn't ask for any of this

This is 100% me!

 

[CatabolicSeed]

Yup. Fucked this one up too bad, it's gotta go.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Less that I'm not winning in life now and more that I feel like I've never won in life. I guess that I'm lucky in some aspects but I guess it's also in my nature to be extra greedy and want everything to feel at least good.

I definitely feel like a loser in every aspect of life anyway I don't know why but I feel like if I'm not the best at something then there's literally no reason to try. I get that that's wrong but I just can't get over that. I'm sort of okay with being a loser on some parts though but not okay enough to really want to continue living for long because I just know the longer I go on the longer life will keep reminding me that I'm a loser.

 

[iDieUDie80]

Yes, this. I'm sick of failing and fucking up.

 

[TheSomebody]

My dad keeps entering my room asking If im winning. It took a toll on my psych

 

[aneurysm]

I don't need to be winning in life but I straight up feel like I'm failing in life..and it's not just a feeling. I AM failing in life. I hate responsibilities, I hate work..I didn't ask to be here and I don't want to be forced to be a slave of the government. I just wanna disappear, I didn't ask for any of this

The worst part is, we are truly slaves and everyone is turning a blind eye on this fact. This is terrifying to me.

 

[Nymph]

The worst part is, we are truly slaves and everyone is turning a blind eye on this fact. This is terrifying to me.

Yeah, sometimes I feel like we are the only "woke" ones. How can everyone else just accept the fact that we are slaves