Is it normal to go from happiest I've ever been to the most suicidal I've ever been in 8 months. Idk.

[goingcrazy123]

Just ready to go

 

[sharky]

I'd love to hear your story if you don't mind telling

 

[goingcrazy123]

I'd love to hear your story if you don't mind telling

I'm disabled and receive in home supports I fired my in home supports to go back to an old company I received supports from betraying a friend in the process. At the time it seemed to be pretty trivial but the guilt has become unbearable. I can't live with myself.

 

[shrek34]

I'm pretty much in the same boat, when things that you never could have expected happen

 

[goingcrazy123]

I'm pretty much in the same boat, when things that you never could have expected happen

Hugs, hoping things improve for you

 

[shrek34]

Hugs, hoping things improve for you

same to you, hopefully it gets better

 

[goingcrazy123]

if you need a listening ear i'm open to chat, just shhot me a PM

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are suffering so much, I can imagine that it must be so awful and dreadful being in that situation. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[VoidDesirer22]

Normal? Perhaps if you look at it from the angle that everyones's body eventually ages and they face suffering and strife. But that happens over a longer process than 8 months.

I'd say most of us here are abnormal, even just in the fact that we openly determine that ctb is the most rational course of action, despite our biology screaming for us to reproduce.

 

[Red Scare]

No, it's not crazy. Same thing happened to me.

My husband died, and within 8 months I have gone from being as happy as I could possibly be, to my entire life spiraling out and wanting to ctb

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Unfortunately life is unpredictable and can get exponentially worse from one day to the next.

No, it's not crazy. Same thing happened to me.

My husband died, and within 8 months I have gone from being as happy as I could possibly be, to my entire life spiraling out and wanting to ctb

I'm sorry for your lost

 

[PigeonDreamzz]

Just ready to go

Same.

 

[bloodfallsfirst]

Yes. that's normal. I was doing perfectly fine from October to November, then crashed in December right before a trip. Spent the trip ecstatically happy, then now have been planning to ctb ever since.

 

[Starrywaters]

I think it's normal, I can even cycle from day to day. I have something trigger me and I will be sent into a depression spiral that can last for months. It's exhausting really, I have highs and lows and the depth of the lows make me feel unable to imagine how I can ever be happy or "ok" again.

 

[TMGS]

When you achieve true happiness, sadly the only path left you can go is down. I was happy too, happier than I ever have been, but everything just keeps going 1 step forward, and two steps back, to the point where I'm just completely hopeless. I am content with dying, I'm just not sure I want to be alone when I do.