So it's not my only reason why , but it's a pretty big one. I'm trans too which makes it even worse but even just being ugly in general sucks. I think all I want from life is to find a partner and have a normal life, and I really do not see that with my looks and mental health issues. I feel like if I was just pretty then it'd be accepted to be awkward and weird. And so I'd have less social anxiety/agoraphobia, and I'd be less depressed maybe.
There are also uglier peoples then me that seem to be 100x happier and in relationships, and people 100x prettier than me and in worse situations though. I do think it would maybe make a difference for me ig.
It's to the point of being insecure of my looks to where I've never been able to dance or do certain things because I feel like I'd look stupid and stiff. I went to a festival and was so stiff and awkward bc I hated that ppl could see me lol. But yeah anyways, does anyone else relate to a lot of their problems being bc of their looks? Part of me wants to keep living to try to save up for plastic surgery, but I'm not sure if I'll ever reach that goal.
There are also uglier peoples then me that seem to be 100x happier and in relationships, and people 100x prettier than me and in worse situations though. I do think it would maybe make a difference for me ig.
It's to the point of being insecure of my looks to where I've never been able to dance or do certain things because I feel like I'd look stupid and stiff. I went to a festival and was so stiff and awkward bc I hated that ppl could see me lol. But yeah anyways, does anyone else relate to a lot of their problems being bc of their looks? Part of me wants to keep living to try to save up for plastic surgery, but I'm not sure if I'll ever reach that goal.
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