Is anyone else really close?

[Lost10]

I think tonight. If not tonight I have to wait a week for my husband to get back from a business trip. We separated so he's never really here but stops by during the week sometimes and I know ahead of time when he'll be here. I have animals so I need to be found by the next day. I can't have police here before him because the animals need to be secured. I'll write a note inside the door so he knows where not to look so he won't shockingly just find me. I'll make sure I'm not by any of the animals as well to further ensure he won't come upon a scene.
So anyway is anyone also close to their date?

 

[WornOutLife]

There are days in which I think: "Alright. I'll ctb tomorrow" but for the time being, I'm not doing it lol.

Anyway, sorry to hear you might leave so soon.

Wish you lots of love and peace!

 

[Lost10]

Thank you ❤

 

[rs929]

I really wish I could do something to help you, but you sound so determined....
But you do know that postponing or having second thoughts about it it's alright
Send you a hug

 

[Lost10]

I really wish I could do something to help you, but you sound so determined....
But you do know that postponing or having second thoughts about it it's alright
Send you a hug

Thank you:) I'm going to lose my house,medications, and quality of life as little as that is now. I'm in chronic pain and bedridden with my medications.
Yes I will if I have doubts that's why I mentioned the possibility of it being another week if it wasn't tonight. I already was determined before I came looking for this site.

 

[Lost10]

I got the sn ready and took my beta blocker and Tylenol. All I have is Zofran but they'll dissolve in my mouth. Taking acid reducer now. I already took ambien and Ativan.

 

[abruptum]

I am defiantly a man of opportunity, I take the chances I can. Sadly because of the lack of prep I have 3 failed attempts. I dont know why I do this but I see youre ready. Safe travels and remember we are here until your last minutes <3
Find Peace

 

[Lost10]

I am defiantly a man of opportunity, I take the chances I can. Sadly because of the lack of prep I have 3 failed attempts. I dont know why I do this but I see youre ready. Safe travels and remember we are here until your last minutes <3
Find Peace

Thank you! My husband won't be here for at least 8 hours and then he'll be gone a week. I couldn't wait a week.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

I was planning to go the 20th of this month. Three days before my fiance's birthday. I just don't think I can face it, however, some family drama with my younger brother has become a recent issue and I can't abandon him. He's 16 and looks up to me.. This is just so hard. I had everything planned out and the perfect way to comfortably go.

I'm going to have to reschedule AGAIN. This has happened so many times and it is not a sign, it is my terrible luck. The world does not want me to be at peace.

I would have liked to go on my scheduled date....Picking my brother up at the airport on Friday and I'm just a complete mess. My mind and body had accepted that I was going to die soon, so trying to be enthusiastic and a good older sibling suddenly is a bit of a shock. I don't know if I can do this.

 

[MAA Ke pass]

Hope u found peace

 

[callmesenorita]

I think tonight. If not tonight I have to wait a week for my husband to get back from a business trip. We separated so he's never really here but stops by during the week sometimes and I know ahead of time when he'll be here. I have animals so I need to be found by the next day. I can't have police here before him because the animals need to be secured. I'll write a note inside the door so he knows where not to look so he won't shockingly just find me. I'll make sure I'm not by any of the animals as well to further ensure he won't come upon a scene.
So anyway is anyone also close to their date?

I hope you find peace; I will keep you in my thoughts.

 

[Lost10]

Granny panties on
took wn 8t at 9 :33pst
Slightly sore throat hallways is getting rid of. Drank a Little water with it which helps it's just a slight burning feeling not even as badd as if you have a a badd cold

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

 

[Lost10]

$sn
I am sitting up on a bed because it goes through you faster that way from what I've read and I know food works the same way

 

[articledon]

Wishing you a peaceful journey

 

[rs929]

Wish you peace. If you're still there and change your mind you can always call ER

 

[whitefeather]

$sn
I am sitting up on a bed because it goes through you faster that way from what I've read and I know food works the same way

Thanks for posting today .

 

[callmesenorita]

I hope you're at peace now.

I don't know you, but I want to say this anyway. I love you. As a fellow human being, I love you.

 

[Moviement]

Me. I have 12 hours.

 

[rs929]

Me. I have 12 hours.

What's your story, my friend?

 

[rs929]

Last seen today 1:46am. OP are you still with us?

 

[Outofhope]

I think tonight. If not tonight I have to wait a week for my husband to get back from a business trip. We separated so he's never really here but stops by during the week sometimes and I know ahead of time when he'll be here. I have animals so I need to be found by the next day. I can't have police here before him because the animals need to be secured. I'll write a note inside the door so he knows where not to look so he won't shockingly just find me. I'll make sure I'm not by any of the animals as well to further ensure he won't come upon a scene.
So anyway is anyone also close to their date?

I feel like I have less than a month

 

[Endeavour]

Says 4.46am for me.

They did say partner would be home in 8 hours or more, could be someone like LE looking.

 

[nofutureghost]

I do think so... I mean, I've tried to ctb january 1st but I haven't time enough to make it work :( so I can say I'm just waiting a good opportunity again

 

[melissa286]

I'm thinking probably in about a month.

There's a lot more I wanted to get done before the time came, but my health is about to turn a corner beyond which I'm not prepared to go. And with the primary care doctor I currently have, I have no faith that the paperwork I'm doing will allow me to keep the meager benefits I've been surviving on.

I hope I can get a few more of my affairs in order. I'm not physically able to give my place a good cleaning, but I may be able to get most things into boxes that can just be thrown away. Pictures and souvenirs that people might want are in a separate, clearly labeled stack of boxes.

Quarantine has made it easier to slowly withdraw from relationships. Out of sight, out of mind, as they say. I kind of hoped it would last a little longer. I went ahead and got my vaccinations, because it might have tipped people off if I hadn't. Who knows, maybe that will make the medical school more likely to accept my remains.

I didn't expect to be as scared or nervous as I am. It's what I've wanted for most of my life, and I know that rationally it's the best thing for everyone involved. But there you go. Putting it off has just made it harder.

It's my biggest regret that I wasn't able to keep my life insurance. It was such a comfort to me while I had it. There is some money that my family should be able to claim from a state pension; I checked with them to see if my survivors would be able to claim it and they said yes. But I'm sure it will be some kind of long, protracted fight. It really would have been easier for everybody involved if I had CTB a few years ago.

Anyone who thinks suicide is "the easy way out" has never really given any serious thought to that statement.

Funnily enough, one of the hardest tasks has been preparing a list of all my logins and passwords. And figuring out emails I'd like to queue up to send to a few people after I'm gone. I have a fear that my e-mail will be disabled as soon as I die. There's this myth that suicides don't care about the people they leave behind, but it couldn't be further from the truth.

If I had been born with a different body or in a different culture, I think I could have had a life worth living. But that's just not how it worked out. If I had realized how acutely life-threatening the two life-threatening Illnesses I've had were, and how close to death I was, I simply wouldn't have sought treatment.

And it's going to be a bitch getting a DNR on file without tipping anyone off. I've already lost the health care proxy forms I was supposed to file.

I watched Soylent Green again the other night. Why can't we have the option to die with dignity like the Edward G. Robinson character?

Anyhow, thanks for being there to listen and not judge.

 

[Dizzy_Dreams]

Yes it it getting closer to that point but I am very scared of where I'll go after I pass on

 

[DarkWolf]

I'm hoping to go next Saturday. Just need to get a couple of remaining things and finish my work shift. Then if everything goes to plan I'm out of here. I'm hoping 3rd time lucky this time.

 

[Shu]

Granny panties on
took wn 8t at 9 :33pst
Slightly sore throat hallways is getting rid of. Drank a Little water with it which helps it's just a slight burning feeling not even as badd as if you have a a badd cold

So what happened? Are you okay now
?

 

[littlelungs]

I'd love to be able say with absolute certainty that I'm close, but I don't actually know. I wish I had a specific date to look forward to, but it depends on a couple of factors; in every other regard, I'm so ready to go. In any case, I take a shit ton of solace in the fact that, with every agonizing day that passes, I am still one day closer to eternal peace. Hopefully it's not much further off.