Venting Inability to cope with the cruelties of the world.

[cme-dme]

How does anyone cope with how awful and cruel the world is? I have never been able to say "It is what it is" and move on. I feel like I am empathetic to a fault. How am I supposed to be happy with the knowledge that innocent people are murdered every day..? Innocent people who lived lives as rich and complex as mine or any other? It all feels like some sick joke. I don't know how to live like this. I feel like I not only want to die but I should die. It hurts. So bad.

 

[Ijustcantanymore]

I am right there with you. Like not only can I not reconcile the cruelty being done to me by society, but being a highly empathic person. I am constantly driven mad by the pain I feel for the others out there too, beyond my line of sight that are also being made to suffer.

And right!? It all does feel like a sick joke. Like its all a lie constructed to torture us. And yet we're not allowed to opt out with help. Ridiculous cruelty. And for what? Money? Worthless linen with dead people on it?

I am constantly torn between my feelings of empathy for humans and my absolute disgust at the stupid ways they choose to live.

It's like torture, having to wake up to this every day and then be expected to participate in it with gratitude, or die.

Fuck. And unfortunately, humanity all over the world seems to be deciding we need to have another dark age, only this time with much more weapons and technology to oppress us. So many countries are taking hard swings towards fascism and authoritarianism. At this rate another world war is likely.

My heard spirals everyday with how much worse it gets just day by day.

 

[BorderlineQ]

I feel this to my core. I can't accept so many aspects of the world and the society I'm in. I've tried my whole life to find the bright side, and accept things as they are, but I can't. I can't ignore the problems of our world, but I also don't have the energy physically, emotionally, and mentally to fix them either.

 

[FuneralCry]

It truly is so cruel, it's so horrific to me how there's all this endless suffering in existing with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, no matter what I really would never wish for the pain of existing, I wish I was never forced into this reality in the first place more than anything.

 

[cme-dme]

I am right there with you. Like not only can I not reconcile the cruelty being done to me by society, but being a highly empathic person. I am constantly driven mad by the pain I feel for the others out there too, beyond my line of sight that are also being made to suffer.

And right!? It all does feel like a sick joke. Like its all a lie constructed to torture us. And yet we're not allowed to opt out with help. Ridiculous cruelty. And for what? Money? Worthless linen with dead people on it?

I am constantly torn between my feelings of empathy for humans and my absolute disgust at the stupid ways they choose to live.

It's like torture, having to wake up to this every day and then be expected to participate in it with gratitude, or die.

Fuck. And unfortunately, humanity all over the world seems to be deciding we need to have another dark age, only this time with much more weapons and technology to oppress us. So many countries are taking hard swings towards fascism and authoritarianism. At this rate another world war is likely.

My heard spirals everyday with how much worse it gets just day by day.

I can at least justify my own suffering. I do deserve it to some extent. Meanwhile there are people who lived happy lives, had loving family and friends yet they are always the ones who die young. I am miserable yet I live while others who are actually happy are forced to die. Every day people who are so much better off than I am die. It's disgusting. Life is so disgustingly unfair. No amount of therapy or medication can change these fundamental parts of life for me. Happiness is unobtainable when you're hyper aware of being in a world this sick; built on violence and greed.

 

[yehxlder.666]

I don't think people really cope with it, they just came to the conclusion that's just how the world is. Animals killing animals. There's nothing to be done, complaning wont change anything, so they just live with it. Its okay if you cant make sense of it, you're not on the need to be apathic, that's what makes you human after all, but its also not like an wild animal will care about its prey, he can, but he's just forced not to it, forced by the world they live in, just like you're forced to live in the exact world as them, understanding it wont change anything either. If you look this way, even you're the predator yourself. Humans, just like other animals were made to kill and die(we're still animals ourselves), so every innocent and malevolent life will end eventually. So i guess they're just living with it like you do, but not really complaining about it.

 

[quietism]

I suppose I cope with cruelty by trying to understand it. I find there's something admirable about being able to do that.

I guess the alternative of wilful ignorance just feels too disgusting to me, so I go the other extreme. It's a tough balance to not hurt yourself in the process though.

 

[cme-dme]

I don't think people really cope with it, they just came to the conclusion that's just how the world is. Animals killing animals. There's nothing to be done, complaning wont change anything, so they just live with it. Its okay if you cant make sense of it, you're not on the need to be apathic, that's what makes you human after all, but its also not like an wild animal will care about its prey, he can, but he's just forced not to it, forced by the world they live in, just like you're forced to live in the exact world as them, understanding it wont change anything either. If you look this way, even you're the predator yourself. Humans, just like other animals were made to kill and die(we're still animals ourselves), so every innocent and malevolent life will end eventually. So i guess they're just living with it like you do, but not really complaining about it.

At least with an animal it is easy to justify that animals use instincts to survive and killing and eating prey is just nature. When it comes to humans, we do this to ourselves. Animals kill to survive while humans kill each other over petty grievances, disagreements, psychotic rage, etc. And we have spend incredible amounts of resources designing weapons to more efficiently kill each other.

I suppose I cope with cruelty by trying to understand it. I find there's something admirable about being able to do that.

I guess the alternative of wilful ignorance just feels too disgusting to me, so I go the other extreme. It's a tough balance to not hurt yourself in the process though.

I admire your ability to do that because I have no clue how you'd find that balance. It feels like the only solution is blissful ignorance which is a one way street.