In still in love with her.

[HFK40000]

I still think about my ex constantly and I would give anything to be with her again. Since she started ghosting me I have been isolating myself because I am afraid of ruining into her randomly. She and I shared so many hobbies and interests that it's impossible for me to find enjoyment in those interests. When she ghosted me that was my breaking point. I refuse to live without her.

 

[KatalinaKrimson]

I feel the same way. My Daddy gave me purpose. Taught me i had value. He was next to me for everything.

I'd never even known that I could be myself around somebody and still be loved by them like I was with him.

Now i realize that I'm completely replaceable to him. My usefulness is over. I feel like I can never really be myself again and never really feel true love again.

I wish he would have just killed me instead of throwing me away.

 

[Redhand5]

I still think about my ex constantly and I would give anything to be with her again. Since she started ghosting me I have been isolating myself because I am afraid of ruining into her randomly. She and I shared so many hobbies and interests that it's impossible for me to find enjoyment in those interests. When she ghosted me that was my breaking point. I refuse to live without her.

That is a tough thing to bear. Love lost can be the most painful thing in life, in my opinion.
I'd give anything to have my love back. The future we planned, to goals we pursued, to hardships we overcame, the love that once dwelt in our hearts. We were together for almost every day for 14 years. I still cry for her. I still cry for losing her.
Sadness can be overwhelming at times. The pain you feel is yours alone to bear through, but you're not alone in sadness. Remember to treat yourself with kindness and gentleness and allow yourself to grieve if you'd like to.

 

[Climber]

I still think about my ex constantly and I would give anything to be with her again. Since she started ghosting me I have been isolating myself because I am afraid of ruining into her randomly. She and I shared so many hobbies and interests that it's impossible for me to find enjoyment in those interests. When she ghosted me that was my breaking point. I refuse to live without her.

I'm in the exact same situation, the ghosting, the fear of running into her. The inability to feel happy on the hobbies I used to love or even around people who remind me of her. I found out she blocked me on our anniversary this month. If you want to talk about this I would love too, I feel understood by your post.

 

[HFK40000]

I'm in the exact same situation, the ghosting, the fear of running into her. The inability to feel happy on the hobbies I used to love or even around people who remind me of her. I found out she blocked me on our anniversary this month. If you want to talk about this I would love too, I feel understood by your post.

It certainty seems like we are in the same spot. I sent you a message in a private conversation.

 

[Climber]

It certainty seems like we are in the same spot. I sent you a message in a private conversation.

Trying to find it, still learning to navigate the site. Couldn't find it, started my own private message instead.

 

[DeadnDusted]

I feel you. One of the worst feelings I've ever had to encounter.
Ive been feeling like this for 3 years. She started out nice but idk what happened along the way and she ended up using me like a rug keeping me at arm's length and disappeared the moment my convenience ran out, I hate what she became but still love her and cant stop mourning who I was before her bc this shit legit traumatized me.

 

[idkplshelp]

She broke up with me just 2 weeks back, after a short 6 months relationship but I haven't been able to do 1 thing properly. I think about her all day, and I'm very depressed and have anxiety. I'm a mental health patient but it's worsening. Overthinking, paranoia, feels like I'm just pretending to act cool while there's panic attacks triggering every few minutes on the inside. She's not ghosted me but limited contact and asks me to understand and do well for myself. I'll also share the reason for the breakup. Me and ex meet at a de addiction center and the staff there shared my condition and history with her father. Her father supports her and her baby who needs a lot of medical expense due to some health condition. So he doesn't want us to date or have anything at all. She can't refuse her father as he's supporting her and her baby plus now she thinks her father is very important to her. And she can let me go. So good right. I feel so hopeless. I used to come here earlier due to my illness and other things. I really wish she knew how I'm gonna end up feeling and being. Probably even dead.