Hello, I am sorry that this is your life.
Since puberty, I have been struggling with serious physical health problems too. I have been searching online for possible causes because doctors refuse to help since years. Throughout my life, I have faced harsh insults, being called ugly, r'tard, and even worse. Now, nearly 30 years old, I have spent much of my life isolated and carrying the weight of trauma caused by discrimination. I wait for organ failure right now, this would be the best just dying in my sleep.
I recommend to take a look at your parents and consider what organic illness they might have. Over the years, I have come to understand that I likely suffer from a form of Fetal Alcohol Spectrum Disorder, as well as kidney and thyroid problems and maybe Porphyrie. My parents both are heavy addicted to alcohol and my father is a smoker and they may have conditions like Cushing's Syndrome.
Starting in 2025, I began filing complaints against my parents and various state institutions where I was bullied/discriminated (traumatized) — from kindergarten and school to youth care centers and psychiatric facilities. Even in public, strangers often stare at me as if I were The Thing monster from the horror movie.
I was never able to learn a trade, never had friends, and had never a supportive family. Every human relationship is broken because people mostly saw me as a disease. They reacted with disgust just by looking at my face, often responding with passive-aggressive and very hostile behavior, and insuling me as ugly, dumb, too slow, mentally ill. My real organic health problems and the discrimination I faced were always dismissed as mental illness or simply ignored. I will never forgive those people for that.
I have only found a few people online who have similar symptoms to mine, and through that, I learned it could be FASD, thyroid dysfunction (either over- or underactive), and kidney issues (or Trimethylaminurie). For several years now, my body (sweat and pores) has had a strong urine-like odore. I have also dealt with shingles and ovarian cysts in recent years. The ovarian cysts and shingles were confirmed by a doctor, but the issues that are less urgent and also more about appearance cannot be treated or are ignored because they know it's related too close to genetics and bad mutations. The best would be I could switch to a normal-looking body.
My problem is that I come from parents that are cr'pples and drug addicts. I don't know about incest cases in my family, but both my parents are so ugly that I assume they are very near. But maybe not so bad compared to the popular Whittaker Incestfamily in America.
Because of my parents, I have always been poor and might even become homeless, as some people who are healthier seem to wish I didn't survive. I am currently surviving only on government assistance (social welfare) here in Germany. There is nothing to do.
I am just trapped in a room, just waiting for death. Most of the time, I lie down and sleep or watch a few movies and series online, or try playing games on my broken laptop. But honestly, I often don't feel good enough doing any of that. I wish very worse things to my parents and the people who allowed that they could reproduce, and the people who discriminated me so much just for my body.
I hope other children will also find the courage to report this humans rights violaton. Because it is a rights violation if you have all those disadvantages in life, nobody was asked to be born into such shit. Btw. I hope you all can understand me, my native language isn't english. I would prefer to write in german.
