I'm trying to draw the line at homelessness.

[Zzzzz]

I have endured so much in life that I really don't care about any potential aftermath of my suicide. I'm not concerned about money for the funeral. They can throw my body in a ditch for all I care. I'm not concerned if people feel guilty or get angry. I'm not concerned if I ruin somebody's holiday or birthday. My suffering must end. This need must come first before anything else otherwise I'll never ctb. There is no way for me to kill myself so it won't be inconvenient for everyone to say the least. So every single day I make serious plans to ctb but They have not coalesced yet. In a couple weeks I will be homeless again. I don't plan on spending a single day homeless. I hope I will kill myself the very first day. I hope I will be able to overcome SI.

 

[Snake of Eden]

My friend here drew the line at homelessness as well. As difficult as it was to ctb for her she wasnt willing to spend a single day being homeless and she stayed true to her promise

 

[FuneralCry]

Living is very painful. It is understandable wanting to exit knowing that things will just get worse. I hope you find peace from all pain and suffering.