Im so tired of being so useless

[byou]

I'm fucking 18 years old, others my age have jobs, relsationships, I even know people who are fucking MARRIED at my age.

All I do is lay in bed, cut myself, eat, watch movies and then cry about how much I hate the way I am..and then that same day repeats every day, nothing ever changes, every day feels the same.

I cant even talk to anyone about how I feel, I either feel like an attention seeker or just....stupid I literally feel like a complete idiot while typing this right now.

Everyone I knew who I thought was feeling the same is doing better by now and dont get my wrong, im happy for them but it makes me feel so alone.

Yeah I dont know how to end this, typing all of this out made me feel a bit better, even tho its just a tiny bit....thanks.

 

[ipmanwc0]

Life is not a race, don't feel pressured to achieve milestones by this or that age. Try to be kind to yourself. And when you can try to do things you feel good about it's encouraging and makes you want to do more. There's an upward spiral you can take advantage of, I'm trying to, hope this is relevant

 

[derpyderpins]

Yeah I dont know how to end this, typing all of this out made me feel a bit better, even tho its just a tiny bit....thanks.

That's great!

I cant even talk to anyone about how I feel, I either feel like an attention seeker or just....stupid I literally feel like a complete idiot while typing this right now.

That really sucks. Not being able to talk through this stuff makes it difficult. I see you're a new account, though, so I hope this place can maybe help you have an outlet. The recovery forum can be a good place I think.

One of the things that I've really hated throughout my life with discussing my mental health issues has been people saying "you're so young!", but, seriously, 18 is pretty young to be fixating on endgame goals like marriage.

People your age are in a position where you have to face unique challenges previous generations did not, many of them challenges of the psyche. Looking inward now could actually put you ahead in a lot of ways. The isolation, not being able to talk about things, makes this difficult, because it's hard to see the bigger picture from our own perspective.

If you ever want to talk to someone feel free to reach out.

 

[SanagiMezamete]

I'm about fed up with this lifestyle too. I'm sorry you are suffering like this. Best wishes.