Venting I'm so exhausted with my life

[un.exist]

So so exhausted.
I don't know what to do with myself
How I wish I could just die without having to do it myself.
I'm tired of everyone around me. I swear I would feel less lonely if I was physically alone.
I don't know if I'm hated by some divine power that has made my life to be such a uniquely torturous thing, making it so that I can't really explain it.
Every. Single. Day is so frustrating, as if even the air around me is trying to annoy me. The days feels so incomplete, so utterly lonely, filled with this fear of the future and hope that I'd die before it. I fill everyday with distractions because I can't sit with my feelings. The days are just the same, can't distinguish them anymore. What happened last week? I don't know, same as today, probably. How did june go by so fast? I remember it was may 28th.

I could compete for the most useless person in the world. I have no benefit to anyone. I'm a burden. I'm so tired of myself. I don't have energy to deal with life anymore. Everyday I just want to die. I don't want anything else.

How does anyone bring themselves to celebrate their birthday?
It is the day I curse most. If only I was miscarried like my twin. Lucky asshole

 

[needtofindrightway]

I relate so much. Especially on the feeling lonely around other people and preferring physical isolation. And also hating my birthday. I don't know how I survived my birthday this year I hated that day so much and wanted to die so bad.

 

[Ben 111]

Me too.. I'm so tired of living

 

[Ben 111]

So so exhausted.
I don't know what to do with myself
How I wish I could just die without having to do it myself.
I'm tired of everyone around me. I swear I would feel less lonely if I was physically alone.
I don't know if I'm hated by some divine power that has made my life to be such a uniquely torturous thing, making it so that I can't really explain it.
Every. Single. Day is so frustrating, as if even the air around me is trying to annoy me. The days feels so incomplete, so utterly lonely, filled with this fear of the future and hope that I'd die before it. I fill everyday with distractions because I can't sit with my feelings. The days are just the same, can't distinguish them anymore. What happened last week? I don't know, same as today, probably. How did june go by so fast? I remember it was may 28th.

I could compete for the most useless person in the world. I have no benefit to anyone. I'm a burden. I'm so tired of myself. I don't have energy to deal with life anymore. Everyday I just want to die. I don't want anything else.

How does anyone bring themselves to celebrate their birthday?
It is the day I curse most. If only I was miscarried like my twin. Lucky asshole

I also curse the day I was born in this hellish realmall I can say is that I understand what ur going through and one should should ever suffer in this life....im so sorry, im also going through the same ordeal

 

[endboss]

Birthdays are the worst.