I’m so desperate

[flutebloom]

I'm so desperate for a way to ctb that requires no money. I am honestly thinking of getting a job just so I can pay for things I need to ctb but im so unmotivated I just want to lay on the floor and disintegrate. It hurts to just be alive that I can't make myself work. I live at my parents house and they check my bags and everything. I found a thin rope in the garage I tried to use to partial hang but it was too thin it wouldn't knock me out. Then it got taken from me. I'm really desperate

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand finding it so painful to exist, I just wish to be gone as well, I find it so cruel and dreadful how there isn't the option to just simply cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find the freedom you search for.