I've had one singular person actually show interest in me. We were actually having a really nice talk and even chatting about a date but ofc I fucked it up and now I'm not hearing from her anymore. It's taken me over 20 years to get that far. I'm so fucking pathetic. I can barely make friends. I can't even keep the ones I do have and I'm absolutely fucking abysmal at romance.
I've begun coming up with a new plan, including false leads and contingencies. I'm so done constantly being in a cycle of up and down. I'm sick of having to accept what a shameful loser I am over and over again. I just want peace and most of all I want to make sure the people around me aren't being dragged down by the burdensome loser I am.
I've begun coming up with a new plan, including false leads and contingencies. I'm so done constantly being in a cycle of up and down. I'm sick of having to accept what a shameful loser I am over and over again. I just want peace and most of all I want to make sure the people around me aren't being dragged down by the burdensome loser I am.
