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AppleTreeDog

AppleTreeDog

Member
Nov 20, 2021
76
I can't leave him behind, it is too cruel. I will make sure he is happy and lives well. But once he passes, there's nothing left for me. I've started over in life too many times at this point and I'm just tired now. Shoulda ctb way back when I was a teen but oh well. I wasn't built to survive as an adult in this world
 
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Trismegistus_13

Trismegistus_13

Your best is all you can give
Jun 17, 2024
98
Your dog sounds like a very lucky boy (or girl) to have you taking care of and protecting them. What's his/her name & breed?
 
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lacrimosa

Experienced
Jul 1, 2024
231
Your dog must be awesome for you to live for them! And you're awesome for deciding to stay with them; hopefully, in time, you will feel more hopeful about life and they will invent a cure for whatever ails you...

I feel the same way about my cat, but, I know that family will take care of him well when I'm gone.
 
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AppleTreeDog

AppleTreeDog

Member
Nov 20, 2021
76
Your dog sounds like a very lucky boy (or girl) to have you taking care of and protecting them. What's his/her name & breed?
Both his name and breed are very unique so I don't feel comfortable posting those just in case. But he's a senior dog, rescued him and his brother from a shelter, they def had some kind of very traumatic past and are terrified of other people and dogs. But bonded quickly to me and I saw such a huge change in them as they grew to trust me more and more. Just sweet loving creatures, and clearly littermates. One of them passed suddenly last winter which devastated me and triggered a new extreme depressive episode. Now it's just me and one dog and all we have is each other. He deserves only love and a happy life.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,699
Your feelings are really understandable, I also feel tired of it all. But anyway best wishes.
 
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sammeh420uk

New Member
Jun 23, 2024
1
I want to go now because I lost my boy a few months ago.
He was only 5 years 9 months and the absolute love of my life. Everything revolved around him and I loved him more than I've ever loved another living thing in my life. I don't know why he had to be pulled away from me like this… he was fine, suddenly got sick and died within a day and a half. It was absolutely horrible, traumatising and I can't do it anymore.

Everything is so dark now I hate it. I'm desperate for my boy back but I'll never see him again. I close my eyes and I see his face as he passed away.

Cuddle your dog everyday, because there will be a day when you can't and then you'll really wonder what life is for… sending love x
 
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kyhoti

kyhoti

Looking for fair winds and following seas
May 27, 2024
294
You are an awesome dog parent! May you find peace on your journey.
 
Steff1337

Steff1337

Autistic and schizophrenic, please be respectful
Jun 21, 2024
633
I have 3 cats, and I can't bring myself to leave them alone, 'cause I know they will suffer when I'm gone.

They are equally important to me as much as any of my close family members.
 
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F@#$

Freedom seeker
Nov 8, 2023
986
I'm in the same place except I've got 2 dogs. When they're gone it's over.
 
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