Venting I'm given up

[burglarlydante]

My abuser (wich people also call him my "father") is making my life a hell
I can't live with all these thoughts and paranoias. I fear that he maybe could abuse me again
He is a fuckin moron, manipulative, agressive, predatory and violent
Nobody seems to support me, through my PTSD crisis
I'm going crazy, everyday it looks like I'm going to explode
I don't trust my family neither my friends
I'm lost in a downward spiral, as i cry and laugh at the same fckn time jahahahahahahhahahahah
I hate myself
I just want to have a opportunity to live a normal life
I think this is kinda distant from my situation here

 

[LeavingEarly]

My abuser (wich people also call him my "father") is making my life a hell
I can't live with all these thoughts and paranoias. I fear that he maybe could abuse me again
He is a fuckin moron, manipulative, agressive, predatory and violent
Nobody seems to support me, through my PTSD crisis
I'm going crazy, everyday it looks like I'm going to explode
I don't trust my family neither my friends
I'm lost in a downward spiral, as i cry and laugh at the same fckn time jahahahahahahhahahahah
I hate myself
I just want to have a opportunity to live a normal life
I think this is kinda distant from my situation here

Sorry you are struggling. I am too.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really unbearable what you are going through and I'm sorry that you suffer. It's sad how so much pain exists in the world. Some people are just so cruel and to me it's terrible the way that many people treat others. I hope that in whatever happens, you find relief.