Venting i’m an addict

[waaaheaven]

i can't stop.
i'm only 19 and i've been addicted to oxycodone for the past two years, i've gone through withdrawal 5 times and every single time i told myself that it would be the last time. That the withdrawal is too painful to experience or go through ever again, but i always end up back with the pill bottle in hand.
Sometimes i convince myself it's better to just get high and try to enjoy myself than the alternative of just committing suicide but it's gotten to a point where i'm "skipping days."
my habit of skipping days is killing me, I wake up and take pills immediately, then i would nod off and sleep for the entire day. if i wake up at all, i just take more to sleep through the day.
I don't know how nobody in my family has noticed, i feel such shame over this addiction.

 

[LastNite]

Are you able to tell your family about your addiction? You should seek help now, it's better than delaying. You're 2 years in, the longer it continues the harder it would be to quit.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I'm an addict too, except my addictions are alcohol and weed. If this addiction is causing more harm to you than good, then I agree with LastNite, you should try to get help escaping from it. I know I probably sound like a hypocrite for saying it because I don't want to quit the alcohol, but my addiction doesn't affect me as badly as yours does.