Has anyone started an SSRI to help motivate CTB?

[SummerChristmasEve]

I have been debating CTB for almost 5 years and have yet to build the courage or follow through logistically with any plan. I have heard that the reason CTB can be a side effect of starting SSRI's is because it gives people the energy to enact their plans. I'll be honest, the main reason I want to go is because I'm chronically lazy and can barely bring myself to do things I enjoy doing. Which ends with me procrastinating going to a gun range and purchasing a handgun which has been my method of choice for a while. I'm tired of putting this off but it's gotten to the point where I do not enjoy rotting all day. Is it worth the headache of trying to get a prescription? I've never spoken to a psychiatrist.

 

[N@te]

I have been debating CTB for almost 5 years and have yet to build the courage or follow through logistically with any plan. I have heard that the reason CTB can be a side effect of starting SSRI's is because it gives people the energy to enact their plans. I'll be honest, the main reason I want to go is because I'm chronically lazy and can barely bring myself to do things I enjoy doing. Which ends with me procrastinating going to a gun range and purchasing a handgun which has been my method of choice for a while. I'm tired of putting this off but it's gotten to the point where I do not enjoy rotting all day. Is it worth the headache of trying to get a prescription? I've never spoken to a psychiatrist.

the only reason SSRI's made me want to kill myself more was because it made me extra miserable and depressed (for the first 2 weeks or so). I haven't heard about the energy hypothesis before

 

[SkeletonFlower96]

i was more suicidal when i was taking a lot of medicines rather than right now that i'm 100% raw living.