CTB Method Ideas for those in the NYC Area?

[destro98]

I'm in the NYC metro area and I'm wondering if anyone has any ideas for methods for those living here.
- Guns seem to be out because this area is so strict on gun control. (Unless someone has an idea for private sellers.)
- SN is pretty much impossible to access and the MIC vendors I've spoken to seem hesitant to ship here. Plus it seems like a risk with customs/local police.

Is jumping pretty much the only reasonable method here? I've explored this option thoroughly and walked several bridges in the area. SI is difficult to overcome but I can't really find any other method.
- Manhattan Bridge was promising because it's open 24/7 with no security and a climb-able fence, but it's only 135 ft above the water, which seems to carry a real risk of just getting injured, not dying.
- High 200 ft+ bridges in the area, mainly the George Washington Bridge and Bayonne Bridge, have reinforced their anti-suicide methods in recent years (damn, just my luck!) and have high fences and/or security patrols.
- Walkway over the Hudson bridge in Poughkeepsie (212 ft above water, 80-minute train ride north of NYC, low railings) seemed promising, but it's such a tourist attraction that there are bystanders everywhere. Plus it closes at 7:30/8pm and has security patrols.

My life is awful and just keeps getting worse. I'm desperate, and have been looking to ctb for 3 months now. Is there any reasonable method for those of us in the NYC area?

 

[wannabeangel]

SN is still easy to buy in NY and i would assume the US in general its just not listed as SN, haven't been able to buy mine yet and im not sure if i should share hints when the original thread was taken down (brick & mortar store one iirc) so i wont out of caution, but i keep thinking about getting high enough to not be in pain, take a train to do more drugs then jump in NYC somewhere as well because i don't know what bridges or buildings to look for or if i can even get access to some. like even tho ik how to get SN and jumping can be risky if not from high enough, i still feel this urge to use it as my method? maybe its because i really wanna regrow my wings and fly, or the fact that i cant bail out once i let go. im not sure what areas would be best when i dont live in the city myself. only other method i could think of are the trains themselves but you'll traumatize others (which tbh jumping in NYC i feel like u could easily do the same damage to others) so i personally see that as a last resort. like if i was completely bound to my wheelchair and not just from pain and SN availability was completely lost i would roll onto the tracks as soon as i see the train coming, doesn't help that the station is so close to me it gives me impulsive thoughts, but i need to plan not be impulsive. mb if i rambled, the topic is just something similar i've been thinking of lately

 

[komakun]

I've also gone through this lol. I settled on sn or hanging being the best. If you have access to the roof of a reaaaally tall building you could do that but jumping seems really scary. Even if you look over the water at the bridge, some of them have roads underneath so you'll have to climb the rails to be over the water at like 3am when nobody is paying attention. It helps to visit the bridges first to survey how accessible a spot is if you think that's something you'll do. There's one I considered and I found a spot you can jump from but scared to post in case they do something about that lol. And i need to check if the height is even tall enough.

Idk I think it's really easy to get drugs here without needing dwm and easier to avoid getting caught for them. So that might help with whatever method you choose.