if only...

[sleepy dog]

If I still had the N (police took it), and hadn't used it yet. Right now would be the perfect time to use it. It's quiet, boring, lonely, and its Christmas. Such a perfect time. I feel old, worn out, unloved, depressed. If I still had it, I would die tonight.

 

[realjunes]

SleepyDog,
If anyone had their N confiscated they would feel the same. I am sorry you had to go through a confiscation when I know you put so much energy, money, and faith into the effort. I cannot even imagine how it would feel to have the product and it be taken from you! That is so wrong! I really don't know what else to say but as a minimum I want you to know I hear you tonight, especially on this night, and I feel your pain and your sorrow. I will keep you in my mind and heart. You know we are all available to you and I hope you will continue to post your feelings and observations and frustrations on this forum. I think it is difficult to realize as a poster that everything you communicate touches another member in some significant way and that is how we serve each other. Thank you for your contributions.