I wish I was a person capable of happiness

[burninghill]

I don't not want to live. Well, I do desperately want to live but this person that I'm a part of right now won't let me. I'm incapable. I've tried so hard. My greatest and only wish is to die and come back as somebody who has faith that they can have a good life.

Since I started loving someone, I've been more interested in making a suicide note, but I never know what to say. I'll leave more questions than answers unless I write something that goes on and on and on. Maybe I'll just write a few clarifying things.

God knows I'm supposed to kill myself, and because of that I hope he brings me somewhere better when I get to live again.

 

[burninghill]

I'm buying an expensive pair of headphones today to hopefully make me more comfortable when the train comes

 

[Knives_14]

I'm so sorry that life brought you to this point op, and i truly wish you can find your peace in a way or another.

Only thing i might add is that i'd wish you didn't see you cbt as something predetermined. It's something that you and you only should decide if and when to do it.

what headphones are you buying? Asking bc Audio is one of my true passions ❤

 

[burninghill]

I'm so sorry that life brought you to this point op, and i truly wish you can find your peace in a way or another.

Only thing i might add is that i'd wish you didn't see you cbt as something predetermined. It's something that you and you only should decide if and when to do it.

what headphones are you buying? Asking bc Audio is one of my true passions ❤

I've bought the Sony XM6's. I've got a pair of Sony earbuds right now and I'm a big fan of them so decided to stick with the brand. I was tempted by AirPod Max 2s but they're almost twice the price.

I really appreciate your kind comment, I appreciate all of them. They make me feel seen.

 

[Knives_14]

I've bought the Sony XM6's. I've got a pair of Sony earbuds right now and I'm a big fan of them so decided to stick with the brand. I was tempted by AirPod Max 2s but they're almost twice the price.

I really appreciate your kind comment, I appreciate all of them. They make me feel seen.

You are seen!
and yeahhh apple products are crazy expensive, especially airpods max, i think you made a really good choice.
Solid alternative at half the price, that's a win in my record! And Airpods' specs are not absolutely worth their price anyway..

what kind of music will you listen with those brand new headphones? =]

 

[burninghill]

You are seen!
and yeahhh apple products are crazy expensive, especially airpods max, i think you made a really good choice.
Solid alternative at half the price, that's a win in my record! And Airpods' specs are not absolutely worth their price anyway..

what kind of music will you listen with those brand new headphones? =]

Yeah I was mostly tempted by the AirPods because of their Spatial Audio. I listen to a lot of Radiohead and it sounds beautiful. The ANC is just as good as the AirPods (I tried them in store) and I honestly can't tell a difference in audio quality, so I'm pleased.

What music do you listen to?

 

[Knives_14]

Yeah I was mostly tempted by the AirPods because of their Spatial Audio. I listen to a lot of Radiohead and it sounds beautiful. The ANC is just as good as the AirPods (I tried them in store) and I honestly can't tell a difference in audio quality, so I'm pleased.

oh i've tried them too! the ANC is absolutely amazing and you're right, it's so hard to tell the difference =]
Thing is, at that price range most headphones have the same specs. different brands may try and focus on something peculiar and maybe try and stand out, but as much as QUALITY in audio, they all sound quite the same.

AND if i were to digress more and let's say consider more expensive headphones, even then it's hard to tell the difference because those kind of headphones are for mastering engineers or at least professionals with trained ears.

So again, great choice! =] and what can I say about Radiohead? Amazing band, amazing music

What music do you listen to?

That is and will always be the hardest question in the world for me =p
i literally live for music and i've learned to enjoy most genres, if not every genre really.

so the answer to that question might pivot into what i'm listening to these days =]

i'm hopping between hardcore punk (turnstile) and indie rock (men i trust) with a little sprinkle of hyperpop (sophie/charli xcx) on top xD