I will never heal because I want results fast

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

Right now I am angry

I am angry at life, angry at everyone around me, on the Internet, and every human being

But mostly I am angry at myself

I cant take this pain

I cannot be patient to heal

I want results now and quick

And if suicide is the way to do it I'd rather do that

The only way people would have taken me seriously is if I die now

I'l; be at peace and they will be suffering for what they did to me

 

[terry_a_davis]

Hi @DeathIsTheWayOut99

I cant take this pain
Describe this pain?

I want results now and quick
What are you trying to achieve?

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

My horrible living situation, the suicidal thoughts, the bad treatment, the abuse, etc

Also please dont assume I have not tried. im doing therapy, taking meds, cut out toxic people, daily self care, so on and so forth. So I have been doing effort

All I want is to be at peace and away from my environment. But I dont have the means atm

I know I know, get a job

I don know what to prove but I

have

been

TRYING

I feel like I am goin to break I cannot do this anymore