Venting I'm losing my mind

[WallTermite]

I don't know what to do. I'm thinking of just drowning myself, but at the same time I got some goals I haven't yet fulfilled. It shouldn't matter since I'll be dead but I don't wanna go like a total pathetic loser.

I will also sound like a psycho, but I want people to regret treating me badly. I want them to feel the pain of losing someone by ctb. Everyone around me makes me angry. I'm so messed up. Meds don't work nor therapy and I wonder why I had to be born, out of so many species, I had to be human with stupid mental isssues and trauma.

Why does God hate us so much. Not to mention so many people dealing with chronic pain and trauma, it's not fair. I'm 26 and I am basically a child who can't function.

 

[sleepytime5]

I don't know what to do. I'm thinking of just drowning myself, but at the same time I got some goals I haven't yet fulfilled. It shouldn't matter since I'll be dead but I don't wanna go like a total pathetic loser.

I will also sound like a psycho, but I want people to regret treating me badly. I want them to feel the pain of losing someone by ctb. Everyone around me makes me angry. I'm so messed up. Meds don't work nor therapy and I wonder why I had to be born, out of so many species, I had to be human with stupid mental isssues and trauma.

Why does God hate us so much. Not to mention so many people dealing with chronic pain and trauma, it's not fair. I'm 26 and I am basically a child who can't function.

yeah but just so you know it's pretty normal, to wanna ctb out of spite, I had that ever since I was a kid, "I'll show you", I've usually been described as narcissist so it makes some sense, it depends wether you're feeling this as anger because of mistreatment or if u just wanna fuck around with them. I personally love fucking around with people every chance I get, but I don't view ctb as one cause I won't be there to see them, if you have psychopathy/aspd, try therapy, not meds, meds won't ever do shit
I totally relate with everyone around making me angry, I hate myself, everytime someone near me succeeds I just hate it, I don't want them to, I sometimes feel like an evil succubus feeding on seeing people fail, I have 2 people I truly care about, when it comes to the rest I hate seeing them do better because of my inferiority complex. My inferiority complex costed me everything, I hate seeing people happy. You'd think I am also a psychopath but nope ain't got the luck, it's either I am distressed by their pain or irritated by their happiness. Can't everyone just be happy with me being the happiest

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I have suffered from mental illness all my life. I am 57 now. All I can say is, I don't believe in God and life was never meant to be fair. We just drew the short end of the stick and it really really sucks.

 

[fitoo5999]

God

I don't know what to do. I'm thinking of just drowning myself, but at the same time I got some goals I haven't yet fulfilled. It shouldn't matter since I'll be dead but I don't wanna go like a total pathetic loser.

I will also sound like a psycho, but I want people to regret treating me badly. I want them to feel the pain of losing someone by ctb. Everyone around me makes me angry. I'm so messed up. Meds don't work nor therapy and I wonder why I had to be born, out of so many species, I had to be human with stupid mental isssues and trauma.

Why does God hate us so much. Not to mention so many people dealing with chronic pain and trauma, it's not fair. I'm 26 and I am basically a child who can't function.

God is a legend my dear friend. We are meaningless in this world.