i will live only 4 more days

[Tiger]

i will live only 4 more days from today, it sucks because i don't believe in after life, my mom gave birth to me, raised me, now when it's time for me to payback in there old age i'm leaving. does that make me a bad person?

 

[Teddybear]

If you want to die because you think you are a bad person then you shouldn't. Outright evil folks live long and prosper, so what does good vs. evil have to do with anything?!

Morallity was made for suckers, holymen, hypocrites and politiceans.

 

[Tiger]

If you want to die because you think you are a bad person then you shouldn't. Outright evil folks live long and prosper, so what does good vs. evil have to do with anything?!

Morallity was made for suckers, holymen, hypocrites and politiceans.

sadly i'm dying because i suffer from illness called bipolar disorder. it took everything from me (dreams, happiness, everything). now i just don't enjoy life anymore. through i have done bad things (everyone does, some preach and some don't) but i don't believe it's punishment from god nor i'm i doing this to punish myself. i'm doing this because i know for a fact that it will make people's life better ( it will be painful in the beginning but in long run it's right thing to do). i don't intend on living like freeloader.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suicide is a human right, none of us asked to exist, so we have no obligations to stay alive. It's a personal decision when to leave this world and deciding to leave this life behind certainly doesn't make you a bad person. It really is such a cruel existence and none of us should have to endure such misery. I hope that you find freedom from your suffering.

 

[Teddybear]

Suicide is not a "right" - its an option that ought to be legally available to the mentally sane. Nothing more nothing less.

There is nothing glorious about it, there is no shining light awaiting us at the end of that tunnel, no forgiveness and in most cases not even real sorrow by the once left behind.

They might be cussing their own inabillity to stop you and they most certainly would like to outlaw websites such as this for the same reason. But next to none will try to appreciate a state of mind that nature didn't intent to be "appreciable".

I just wish people would stop gloryfying death or besmirching life when talking about this topic. Life can be wonderful, joyous and mind-boggling at times.

But it can also turn into a burden too heavy to carry. And the *only* question you ought to ask yourself is "is there a chance for things to get better?"

Suffering from bi-polar disorder myself I can assure you that the midst of a depression is exactly the wrong time to ask yourself that question. Your mind *can not* think clearly right now and only after the clouds have lifted can you look at your life and make an honest assesment: "Is this worth continuing?"

When I am depressed I do terrible things to myself, and the moments the fog has lifted I can not understand the person that did that. But I also have real problems in the physical world that just won't go away and seem to conspire to make life unbearable for me.

I deal with that by *not* setting myself an artificial deadline: "I got to kill myself in X number of days!"

For if my problems are real, then they will continue to be so in 1 week, 2 months or by the end of the year. So I keep account of how I can cope with real issues in the real world and observe how that abillity diminishes. And when I've reached a point were I can cope no more, only then will I take that final step. But not because I had made an announcement publicly and then felt obliged to go through with it.

This is *your* life and you need no one's approval to end it *or* to go on living. When certain people (not you!) on this forum keep cheering on death I always ask myself: "Why the heck is that guy still breathing?!"

 

[houseofleaves]

When certain people (not you!) on this forum keep cheering on death I always ask myself: "Why the heck is that guy still breathing?!"

++++ THIS

 

[Tiger]

Suicide is not a "right" - its an option that ought to be legally available to the mentally sane. Nothing more nothing less.

There is nothing glorious about it, there is no shining light awaiting us at the end of that tunnel, no forgiveness and in most cases not even real sorrow by the once left behind.

They might be cussing their own inabillity to stop you and they most certainly would like to outlaw websites such as this for the same reason. But next to none will try to appreciate a state of mind that nature didn't intent to be "appreciable".

I just wish people would stop gloryfying death or besmirching life when talking about this topic. Life can be wonderful, joyous and mind-boggling at times.

But it can also turn into a burden too heavy to carry. And the *only* question you ought to ask yourself is "is there a chance for things to get better?"

Suffering from bi-polar disorder myself I can assure you that the midst of a depression is exactly the wrong time to ask yourself that question. Your mind *can not* think clearly right now and only after the clouds have lifted can you look at your life and make an honest assesment: "Is this worth continuing?"

When I am depressed I do terrible things to myself, and the moments the fog has lifted I can not understand the person that did that. But I also have real problems in the physical world that just won't go away and seem to conspire to make life unbearable for me.

I deal with that by *not* setting myself an artificial deadline: "I got to kill myself in X number of days!"

For if my problems are real, then they will continue to be so in 1 week, 2 months or by the end of the year. So I keep account of how I can cope with real issues in the real world and observe how that abillity diminishes. And when I've reached a point were I can cope no more, only then will I take that final step. But not because I had made an announcement publicly and then felt obliged to go through with it.

This is *your* life and you need no one's approval to end it *or* to go on living. When certain people (not you!) on this forum keep cheering on death I always ask myself: "Why the heck is that guy still breathing?!"

what you said about people cheering death is true. i'm not in middle of depression, i don't have usual cue's that i have while having depression. i don't see things with a negative mindset. it's just that i simple don't have desire to live anymore, no desire to solve those problems i don't give a f about them, i'm tiered of this cycle where i mess up things and fixing them. what's life when you don't have the joy, energy.

 

[Funeralprincess]

sadly i'm dying because i suffer from illness called bipolar disorder. it took everything from me (dreams, happiness, everything). now i just don't enjoy life anymore. through i have done bad things (everyone does, some preach and some don't) but i don't believe it's punishment from god nor i'm i doing this to punish myself. i'm doing this because i know for a fact that it will make people's life better ( it will be painful in the beginning but in long run it's right thing to do). i don't intend on living like freeloader.

Bipolar took everything from me too. My friends, my dream man (he checked all of my boxes) and my career. I hate what this disease has done and I'm ready to execute myself so I don't have to live in this lonely hell anymore

 

[Euthanza]

I hope you have the best final 4 days and I respect your decision not to lecture you how to live your life or ending it when and how. Peace

 

[Teddybear]

And I hope that when you decide to give it another four days or fourty days or four hundred, that you feel under no obligation to go through with it 96 hours from now, just because you made an announcement in this forum about it.

The one thing my depressions taught me is that you have to learn not to give a shit about other people's oppinion. I used to be outright obsessed with pleasing the expectations of friends and familly - only to find out, that they never cared about what made *me* happy.

So the only dude I need to keep my promises to is myself. All others can go to hell in a handbasket.

If you want to end your life then do it because that is what *you* want - not because you think you owe that to anybody else.

Always remind yourself that you are walking down a one way street and that at the end the big nothing awaits. No trumpets, no shiny light - just the mindless void.