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deathisnear

Experienced
May 23, 2021
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I actually don't "just want to die", I mean I do, but I don't want it to be an accident, I don't want it to be Covid, I want to commit suicide. I want to take my own life and die at my own hand. I want everyone to know that I did that. I want my death certificate to read SUICIDE. I've never felt that as close to the end as I do now. I will be a proud suicide statistic when I finally pull the trigger and end my pain, hopefully soon.
 
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heretogethelp

Specialist
May 3, 2021
311
I actually don't "just want to die", I mean I do, but I don't want it to be an accident, I don't want it to be Covid, I want to commit suicide. I want to take my own life and die at my own hand. I want everyone to know that I did that. I want my death certificate to read SUICIDE. I've never felt that as close to the end as I do now. I will be a proud suicide statistic when I finally pull the trigger and end my pain, hopefully soon.
So will I. Although, I will probably use SN.
 
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WornOutLife

WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,183
Well, I guess if it's that what you want, it's okay.
As for me, it breaks my heart to know that my dad will know I ctb because he really did his best to try to "save" me.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,667
I know what you mean, to me the idea of dying by suicide is taking control over a life you did not ask for. I mean I would rather die of accident as it would mean I wouldn't have to do it myself, but I like the idea of choosing when I die rather than it be taken away randomly.
 
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deathisnear

Experienced
May 23, 2021
284
I know what you mean, to me the idea of dying by suicide is taking control over a life you did not ask for. I mean I would rather die of accident as it would mean I wouldn't have to do it myself, but I like the idea of choosing when I die rather than it be taken away randomly.
Definitely, I am going to proudly take that control over my worthless life that I never asked for. It feels really good to me to be able to take that control. I've pretty much always known I would die of suicide, felt this way since I was 12 ... so many wasted years. Hopefully soon I can make up for that and be the statistic I want to be
 
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Largeletters

Alone
Jan 21, 2020
640
I know what you mean. My therapist once said something along the lines of, "Don't be just another statistic." Well, this life can be way fucking worse.
 
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All Things Must Pass

All Things Must Pass

Mage
Apr 14, 2021
557
Mine will most likely.be covered up by my family.
 
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Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,245
This messed up society is geared toward success. And by success I mean the usual rubbish like: Having a partner, kids, a car, a mortgage and a career. Well guess what: FUCK SUCCESS THEN! IF THIS WORLD IS JUST TO FILL YOUR EGO THEN GO AHEAD. COUNT ME OUT!
 
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