i want to die soon, but i'm so helpless and hopeless here

[aludnelac]

sorry for crowding up with another thread stating the obvious on a place like this, but i'm just getting close to my wit's end now.. i really don't want to keep doing this, even if there's people who care about me, i feel like they don't understand so much, no matter what i try to say.. they want to help, but they don't understand, it makes me feel so alone, i don't want to cause more pain, but i just feel cornered, like i need to escape, i keep cutting myself harder and harder, but that doesn't mean or do anything for me anymore.. i just want out of this game, but i'm stuck living with my dad with no easily discernible method.. i feel so desperate, if i had SN right now i think i could do it, i think i have the resolve to end it all now, it just hurts that i have no real way out in this situation and the people that were supposed to understand me just seem to continue to alienate me, it hurts a lot, and i hurt them by being like this, and being so mentally unstable, going from lucidity to being detached from reality, i'm a heavy burden that shouldn't have to be carried by others, really

 

[FuneralCry]

Living really is so painful and I'm sorry that you suffer so much. I know that it is hard to carry on when you are desperate to leave, suicide is so difficult and I am personally trapped in this world as I have limited access to methods. I think for me, I would rather keep quiet than trying to communicate with people who do not really understand. I feel like people who have not been in a similar situation will never be able to understand. I wish you relief from pain in whatever you decide to do.