Venting i want to die so bad

[jvnko]

im so alone. and thats not even the first of my problems. i made the mistake of telling a friend about my ctb plans, and its making things a lot more challenging.

i have no reason to keep going other than the fear of messing up my ctb

 

[FuneralCry]

I also just wish to be gone and I understand just wishing to be free from this existence, trying to die going wrong is what I'd personally fear as well. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find what you search for.