I want to ctb but I’m scared

[LifeSucks39]

So my significant other left me, I can't work as I feel bad about myself cause I'm fat from the antidepressants and made a hole to my nose by scratching it so I feel ugly and that I won't make a relationship ever again all I wanna do is stay in bed all day long this is torture not life. However I'm scared to ctb what would a painless way be?

 

[Oyoy]

So my significant other left me, I can't work as I feel bad about myself cause I'm fat from the antidepressants and made a hole to my nose by scratching it so I feel ugly and that I won't make a relationship ever again all I wanna do is stay in bed all day long this is torture not life. However I'm scared to ctb what would a painless way be?

I agree

 

[Jean4]

So my significant other left me, I can't work as I feel bad about myself cause I'm fat from the antidepressants and made a hole to my nose by scratching it so I feel ugly and that I won't make a relationship ever again all I wanna do is stay in bed all day long this is torture not life. However I'm scared to ctb what would a painless way be?

Welcome! You are new! We are glad you are here!

I relate. My partner CTB December 8. Which anti depressant are you on? I'm on Wellbutrin. Had Bariatric Surgery for the weight.
May I suggest the Resource section. There you can educate yourself and find what best suits your needs.

 

[yuvo]

Hey feel free to msg me

 

[LifeSucks39]

Hey feel free to msg me

I can't pm you probably because I'm a new member?

 

[bigtasty]

I've always changed how I'm planning to go, I haven't decided on one yet. The resources page here is quite helpful though.

 

[yuvo]

Okay my apologies, please think about this carefully

I can relate because i know the feeling all too well,

I hope you decide to stay around :)

 

[TAW122]

I'm sorry to hear that and having a partner leave you does hurt a lot. Anyways, if you are uncertain or hesitant about CTB'ing, then it would be better to hold off on the attempt or plan until you are really sure. You don't want to risk a failed attempt and end up with permanent injuries and/or other unsavory consequences (like medical/hospital bills, involuntary hospilization, etc). As for the resources and methods, feel free to read up on the resources megathread here for more information.

 

[LadyApple]

If you are scared probably you are not ready yet. Give yourself some time. When I ctb the first time I was so certain, no fear nor hesitation, but pure determination. I took a whole bottle of valium. Here I am 16 years later trying the nth time. No one is stuck forever. No matter what happens you will eventually be better, here or there.