Venting I want someone to just kill me

[JustKillBen22]

I can't do it myself, at least not alone, I'm too scared and too much of a fucking coward. I feel like I'm trapped in this hell of a life. It would be so much easier if someone just killed me, I wouldn't have to do anything myself, no-one who knew me would feel guilty, and I'd be out of this life. I am not asking someone to kill me that would be dumb, it's just nice to think about it happening randomly.

 

[Mistake of Nature]

I'm trapped as well. I'm too scared to live but too afraid to die. I wish so badly I could find someone to encourage me to CTB or just kill me, but those are wildly unrealistic scenarios, unfortunately.

 

[ocd is bad]

Yeah I want that too, the main reason I don't ctb now is because I'm worried about my parents. If someone kills me it'll be a little easier on them.