I want death

[Zzzzz]

The only time I feel happy is when I imagine performing my chosen ctb method. I was going to use a gun but it was too gory/violent for me and there were other reasons I didn't want to use a gun.

 

[Rational man]

I presume you live in USA. Getting a gun in UK is next to impossible. Violence is awful. I wish you peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that if I had access to a gun I would never be able to ctb that way. To me it sounds like a horrible method and I would be afraid of it going wrong in some way. My ideal method is a peaceful one. I envy those who die by N. To me it would certainly be comforting having the option to pass away peacefully.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

I think that if I had access to a gun I would never be able to ctb that way. To me it sounds like a horrible method and I would be afraid of it going wrong in some way. My ideal method is a peaceful one. I envy those who die by N. To me it would certainly be comforting having the option to pass away peacefully.

It does sound horrible and violent, and I hate guns. But if I had one. I'm almost sure it would be impossible for me not to use it. Knowing how quick it would be over… I could see myself going to it in moments when I'm at my lowest.