I vomit almost every single day but I'm forced to live

[Ednospatient]

I throw up almost daily and I can't make it stop. Eating scares me because of this. I take meto daily but it isn't helping. I just want to ctb, but I live in a care home and the staff confiscated my SN so I'm forced to suffer. I can't take this anymore.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really horrible what you are going through, it must be so unbearable. It is so cruel to force people to live against their wishes. It is your life and others should have no say in it. Our right to die should be respected. I wish you the best.

 

[Freedomindeath4me]

That sounds nightmarish. So sorry to hear it.

 

[Cathy Ames]

@Ednospatient Does the vomiting happen immediately after you eat or is it unassociated with meal times? If it is not associated with meal times, have you been evaluated as to whether you have migraines? There is a type of migraine called "migraine aura without headache" (that I get), and it does cause severe nausea. Severe enough that at least some people other than me would probably throw up.

 

[Ednospatient]

@Ednospatient Does the vomiting happen immediately after you eat or is it unassociated with meal times? If it is not associated with meal times, have you been evaluated as to whether you have migraines? There is a type of migraine called "migraine aura without headache" (that I get), and it does cause severe nausea. Severe enough that at least some people other than me would probably throw up.

It usually happens at the beginning of meals, I throw up and (usually) I'm able to finish the plate after.

 

[its-about-time]

Been through near daily vomiting for months. It just sucks. I hope they can find a cause and way to stop it. If it's something that can't be cured, then I'm very sorry. Do you have a feeding tube? A J tube or something seems like it'd help, so you get nutrition without food having to be in your stomach… I'm sure your docs would've suggested it already though if it was appropriate for you.

 

[Cathy Ames]

It usually happens at the beginning of meals, I throw up and (usually) I'm able to finish the plate after.

Oh God. How awful. That sounds like a nightmare. That also sounds like a thing that would most likely have a medical reason! Why have they stopped trying to find an explanation?! [<-That's a rhetorical question. You don't have to answer it.]

I'm just so sorry.

 

[befree]

Is it possible to escape ? If yes, you would have to prepare for another method that you can do anywhere.

 

[Life_and_Death]

Honestly, without knowing where you live, that sounds like something that should be accepted for assisted dying.

 

[befree]

Do you live in or near Switzerland ? Are you able to travel ? Do you have someone who can accompany you or drive you to Switzerland ?
If yes, I might have an idea. If you want, send me a PM.

 

[Cathy Ames]

Been through near daily vomiting for months. It just sucks. I hope they can find a cause and way to stop it. If it's something that can't be cured, then I'm very sorry. Do you have a feeding tube? A J tube or something seems like it'd help, so you get nutrition without food having to be in your stomach… I'm sure your docs would've suggested it already though if it was appropriate for you.

Yeah, the feeding tube sound like it WOULD be a good idea. I wouldn't count on the docs suggesting it, TBH. Once they decide to lay someone off on being due to mental illness, they don't bother doing very much of anything for you unless you insist.

 

[myopybyproxy]

cyclic vomiting syndrome?

agree about the feeding tube.