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twilightvader

twilightvader

evermore
Jun 20, 2026
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I'm alive and sober and nothing bad happened to me. Firstly I didn't try to just test SN, I worded it misleadingly, my ideal date to leave is during june. I just hesitated to drink it all and spit some out, that's why I failed and I'm disappointed. Secondly I drunk too much alcohol and had eaten something close before which i guess protected me

I was most of the time passed out, felt odd sensations on my chest and inside my head. It's hard to describe because I can't remember most of what happened but it wasn't that painful. I too saw really realistic hallucinations of me getting up to go get water which made it hard to actually get up to do it

I just threw up the last of the SN i took and I can still taste it. I'm pretty sure i took much less than a gram because i didn't die
Good but don't try it again please, it could be dangerous and damage your organs. I wish you the best OP.
 
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lpdsvm

lpdsvm

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Jan 11, 2026
325
like a minute ago. idk it tasted like sea water with toasted bread. in my option it wasn't so bad. also i'm really drunk so i don't know if i'll survive through this or not. i took 100 mg of propanolol and 150 mg of quetiapine beforehand like an hour ago so i feel relaxed
i put two teaspoons of SN into the mug
If I tested it, I would assume my life is almost screwed (about 98 percent before the deadline. Nothing else left but CTB). I would not care. In any case I wish you all well.
There's always a risk with any method but I do think the risk with failed SN attempts is lower. It was years ago but there was a thread posted supposedly explaining that the risk of long term damage is rare.

Certainly compared to the other traditional impulsive methods (like jumping in front of a train) the risk is far lower. That's one method I constantly see the average person do impulsively and gets mentioned here a lot despite the fact that you are guaranteed to be brain damaged and missing limbs if you survive, and death is often not instant.

I feel like anyone that has acquired SN despite its difficulty in obtaining nowadays is aware of the sticky and the virtually guaranteed chance of death if no medical treatment is received.

I'm aware im playing devils advocate in this situation and its an unpopular take, but just leaving my thoughts because I have experience with it.

Hope you're doing okay if you survived <3
I totally support your opinion. I also think so.
Plus many did it and no damage.

For example hanging can cause even more of brain damage if saved too late or something is not holding one right. It can apply to anyone who enjoys it and they know the risks and still do it. David Carradine wasn't lucky at all with this.

When we change the purpose of the act, then all of a sudden it sounds better but the risks never go anywhere.
 
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miyabi

miyabi

Miyabi loves you <3
Dec 20, 2024
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If I tested it, I would assume my life is almost screwed (about 98 percent before the deadline. Nothing else left but CTB). I would not care. In any case I wish you all well.

I totally support your opinion. I also think so.
Plus many did it and no damage.

For example hanging can cause even more of brain damage if saved too late or something is not holding one right. It can apply to anyone who enjoys it and they know the risks and still do it. David Carradine wasn't lucky at all with this.

When we change the purpose of the act, then all of a sudden it sounds better but the risks never go anywhere.
Yeah, i think the risk with something like hanging is greater. I can only speak from my own experience but my Methemoglobin levels exceeded 70% - I was about as close to death as you could come with SN yet I have no damage at all. There's a lot of failed hangings with brain damage :/
I'm alive and sober and nothing bad happened to me. Firstly I didn't try to just test SN, I worded it misleadingly, my ideal date to leave is during june. I just hesitated to drink it all and spit some out, that's why I failed and I'm disappointed. Secondly I drunk too much alcohol and had eaten something close before which i guess protected me

I was most of the time passed out, felt odd sensations on my chest and inside my head. It's hard to describe because I can't remember most of what happened but it wasn't that painful. I too saw really realistic hallucinations of me getting up to go get water which made it hard to actually get up to do it

I just threw up the last of the SN i took and I can still taste it. I'm pretty sure i took much less than a gram because i didn't die
Great to hear you're well <3
 
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lpdsvm

lpdsvm

Specialist
Jan 11, 2026
325
Yeah, i think the risk with something like hanging is greater. I can only speak from my own experience but my Methemoglobin levels exceeded 70% - I was about as close to death as you could come with SN yet I have no damage at all. There's a lot of failed hangings with brain damage :/
Yeah. Some people are scared (I thought "helicopters and tanks" would come and bust me once I ordered SN) ahaha. We are all people and want what is best. Some people are just pro-lifers and try to talk out of anything related to CTBing but support it to blend in.
One thing for sure: experience, extensive research, and sharing can help the community. Nothing else. Speaking of sharing. Thanks for sharing. 🙂
 
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CatsMeow

ASD
May 21, 2026
16
Okay it tastes much worse if you put three teaspoons in. Just a warning. Have a nice day/night and I'm sorry, it's my time to catch the bus. Goodbye!
This depends if I'll vomit again or not though lol
 
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SkeletonFlower96

SkeletonFlower96

From 🇧🇷
Mar 28, 2026
75
Okay it tastes much worse if you put three teaspoons in. Just a warning. Have a nice day/night and I'm sorry, it's my time to catch the bus. Goodbye!
This depends if I'll vomit again or not though lol
Are you still alive?
 
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Aknu132

Aknu132

Tenha um bom dia!
Dec 25, 2023
331
Okay it tastes much worse if you put three teaspoons in. Just a warning. Have a nice day/night and I'm sorry, it's my time to catch the bus. Goodbye!
This depends if I'll vomit again or not though lol
Goodbye and Rest in Peace. 🕊️
 
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geepeedee

geepeedee

no future
Feb 24, 2026
325
goodbye and good luck.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
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🕊️ rest in peace
 
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