Venting I told my mom i lost my job

[Marguerite492]

I told her I didn't want to talk about it, and for her to leave me alone, and she did.

And it's true i don't want to talk about it. I don't want to know how much she's disappointed, how sad she is. But i also almost wish she would talk to me, so she could say that herself. Maybe it would make CTB easier. I don't know. I'm just so tired. I'm so tired.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm also very tired. I'm sorry that you suffer. This life really is so depressing.

 

[Seeking_Peace]

Do you pay rent? Otherwise, I wouldn't stress about it. Losing a job can be stressful and giving someone space/air is probably what she is thinking.

 

[Marguerite492]

I'm also very tired. I'm sorry that you suffer. This life really is so depressing.

I don't understand why there isn't a legal way for us to CTB safely, and painlessly.
I'm miserable. I'm a financial drain on my family, and on society. I contribute nothing in value back to society. Why then am I forced to stay alive?

Do you pay rent? Otherwise, I wouldn't stress about it. Losing a job can be stressful and giving someone space/air is probably what she is thinking.

I pay rent to her. In her many, many attempts to try and give me some standing to get back on my feet, she bought me a house to live in. When I got this job, we agreed i pay her (an extremely discounted) rent. I'm mostly stressed that once again i failed her. Like I always do. And leading up to this she was constantly, constantly talking about how excited she was for me and how proud she was. I broke her heart by being a failure

 

[Seeking_Peace]

How's your credit? Can you get a small loan til you get a new job? I'd explore all options. Unemployment doesn't pay shit and takes forever to get paid.

 

[Marguerite492]

How's your credit? Can you get a small loan til you get a new job? I'd explore all options. Unemployment doesn't pay shit and takes forever to get paid.

My credit is terrible, and i can't afford loans anyhow

 

[Foresight]

Your mom loves you and cares about your safety and wellbeing before anything else. She's probably more scared about your inner state than anything else.